The problem is that anything can be used by the mind to hike its activity even more, for example, when there are teachings about “ego” in spiritual circles, the mind hooks on to the teachings and goes about trying to get rid of the ego, making this into a new obsession. When there is a teaching about bringing awareness, the mind can start obsessing about awareness. When there is a pointer given to let go of negativity, the mind can make that into another way of beating itself up for being negative. It doesn’t matter what solution/pointer/guidance is presented to the mind, it finds a way of convoluting it. This is the reason why the pre-requisite for alignment is to first reduce your mind momentum. And to reduce mind momentum takes time, which you need to invest, if you want results. It also takes a commitment, and a scientific understanding of what you are doing, so that you don’t end up falling for your mind’s tricks to get you hooked back into it.
Always remember, that in the midst of all the pointers, the key pointer is – reduce your mind momentum first, everything else is next. In fact, if you reduce your mind momentum, you become resistance-free enough to allowing the well-being of your life-stream, hence everything falls into a harmony on its own. If you have a hundred questions about life, if you are confused about where you are heading, if you feel meaningless, if you are depressed by global suffering, if you are dealing with obsessive thoughts or dealing with panic attacks and anxiety – all of these find a solution after your mind momentum is reduced. Without a high momentum in the mind, you would not be tormented by its movement – this allows you the space to be open to solutions for a better life, while also causing the dissolution of symptoms like obsessive thinking, panic attacks and anxiety.
One solution for all problems
It’s easy to see that all the problematic life situations, and psychological suffering, find their root in one problem – “high mind momentum”. Of course, the mind momentum is fueled by the accumulated negative energy in the body, and a big part of reducing the mind momentum is to release the negative energy store-up in your body. Each of us is different in the load of negative energy that we inherited, and the load that we accumulated through our unconscious living – and the time it takes for the release would depend on the load you are presently carrying. There is no use “complaining” about what were the reasons for you to accumulate negativity – may be you had a bad childhood, possibly you had a negative environment, may be you inherited a good amount of negativity from your gene pool and may be you had all the wrong influences in your life, it really doesn’t matter – the question is are you willing to release the negativity now? Are you willing to commit to it 100%, because a lot of us gain our identities from our negativity and are not really willing to let go of it – pathetic as it may sound.
To reduce your mind momentum is the solution to all your psychological suffering, and the solution to you aligning with a congruent reality. It’s only your mind momentum that creates resistance to allowing the free flow of well-being into your reality. It’s not about making the mind fully positive (because that’s never going to happen), but about reducing the mind momentum to the point that it has no intensity to influence your being. People who go on the futile journey to make their mind fully positive, live a life of constant struggle against the inevitable.
Then there are people who go on an endless journey to “kill” their ego, which again is another futile effort where the mind tries new tricks to become more noble, which is just a new form of ego. Once your mind momentum is reduced, you don’t even have to bother with the ego because it’s no longer a strong force in your life. The ego force is directly proportional to the mind force, because ego is the mind’s “me” thought. So once mind momentum is reduced (when it comes to it normal state or natural state), you are not pulled around by the negativity of the ego force, plus you don’t have to pretend to be some “spiritual personality”, you can just be yourself fully and fearlessly. You just come to your natural way of being without being influenced by the grip of fear/negativity in the mind, leading a life of expressing your true potential and attracting a reality congruent with you.
Understanding the process of reducing mind momentum
It took me a while to figure out that the root cause of all psychological suffering was a high mind momentum. I was inundated by a lot of teachings on killing the ego, realizing oneness, using law of attraction, balancing the chakras, various meditations, various philosophies, which can overload the mind with a lot of “spiritual stuffing” and metaphysical bent. It’s easy to get lost in this maze of teachings, while using the mind to execute them. The mind obviously stays entertained and busy in its pursuit, and there is nothing more engrossing than spiritual studies, mystical/spiritual experiences (through the various meditations or drugs, whatever floats your boat) and metaphysical philosophies – it’s endless, and it all just becomes a new form of entertainment without solving the problem, which is to be free of psychological suffering and come to a balance/alignment. Most of it can just end up giving you a spiritual ego, making you into a hermit, a recluse or a drop out, who uses “escapism” as a way of dealing with life.
When nothing really works is when you figure out the futility of trying to solve the mind with the mind. Now you become receptive to the idea of letting go of the mind, and of course the mind can take up this idea also and make a hash of it. So it’s important to have a clearer understanding of this process, so you don’t end up getting stuck in the limbo for long. Below I’ve listed a few pointers that can assist you in gaining a clearer perspective on reducing your mind momentum, and also clarify some questions that are frequently asked in the comments.
It takes time – You need to get this very clearly – “it will take time”. We live in a world of instant coffee, and have grown into the attitude of instant gratification, and hence we bring the same attitude to everything including this process of reducing mind momentum. But it’s important to realize that it has taken years of unconscious attention for your mind to have gathered the present amount of momentum, plus a huge load of accumulated negativity, and to release it is going to take time. When you really start opening up to the release, it can take a few months to have a sense of some inner stability, and you then need to use this inner stability to move through the rest of the release. It’s a journey, it takes time to come to the other end of moving through the layers of negativity that get released, and of course it’s going to be really challenging, sometimes, to ride through an intense release – but there is no bypass or shortcut to this.
Once you become allowing, the process goes on auto-mode – Once you consciously start allowing the negativity to arise, by staying as an open/relaxed awareness (which just means staying allowing of what arises), it will just a take a couple of cycles of conscious release before this process goes on auto-mode, and the release starts happening very freely, and of course more intensely. It’s like initially you just create an opening in the dam, and once the water starts gushing out, it breaks through the barriers on its own. After that you don’t have to “do” anything, it just takes you in its flow. If you are asking – “is it okay if I get pulled in by the mind momentum and negativity, when its intense”, of course it’s okay, and it’s natural, stop worrying about it. Once you’ve started the release going, it finishes out on its own, nothing you do is going to stop it until its empties out – so don’t worry about “regressing”, and don’t worry about if you are doing it right.
Growing in awareness, and then letting go – It’s a straight forward deal – “wake up from the mind, and then let go of its pull”, but execution takes time because of the high mind momentum you may have. Waking up from the mind is accomplished when you start becoming aware of your own mind. Awareness practices like watching the mind (as a detached observer) or even some meditative practices are ways through which you grow in awareness. When you start growing in awareness you are bound to feel the negativity more strongly, it’s like bringing a light into a dark store room, which makes all the objects, hidden there, visible. Don’t get too flabbergasted by all the negativity that you see in your mind, within you and outside you, it’s just that your awareness is now strong, and hence everything is seen very clearly. Once you sense your awareness is strong enough, where you feel that you have some freedom from your mind’s pull, it’s time to just let go into a total allowing – like just letting be, that’s the best way I can explain this state.
This total allowing is what really causes the release, of your accumulated negative energy, to start. And once you go through a couple of releases it totally goes into an “auto mode”, and it will only stop when it empties out completely. You just feel like there is no control, the release just keeps happening on its own, in layers, in phases – like a detox cycle. Over-analysing this release is of no use, but you can enjoy this release, in a way, if you don’t keep worrying about, if you just stay open to it. If you keep getting impatient and frustrated, it just makes your experience bad, that’s all, it doesn’t stop the release. There will be periods of real bliss when each cycle of release gets over, but soon a new cycle will start, and this goes on until the release is done with. If you don’t cling to the bliss you will not be too upset when the next cycle starts. Eventually when the release is done with, you come to a stable, unchanging, inner wholeness.
The reduction in mind momentum happens in sync with the release, because it’s basically your accumulated negative energy that gives the fuel for mind momentum. As the accumulated energy gets released the mind momentum also ebbs away.
You won’t be fully efficient during this phase – To reduce the mind momentum requires an investment in time, a small space where you would just need to give priority to yourself and to this process. A lot of people try to force themselves to be overly functional during this release, which just exhausts them even more and leaves them feeling depressed. Remember that this is a “detox phase”, and if you’ve ever gone through a detox to be free of some addiction (like smoking) you will understand that it’s not a phase when you are at your peak functionality. However once the detox is done with, you have a high energy and you are at a high vibrational stand point. So, during the detox, be allowing of the fact that you will not be at the highest of your efficiency or functionality. This doesn’t mean that nothing will get done, whatever is needed will get done – it’s just that you should avoid over-straining yourself, and spend more time in rest, allowing the body to recuperate from the intense release that happens.
This why it’s important to make a commitment towards this process, where you give it a priority above everything else. If the mind says “but what about my bills?”, know that whatever is needed will be taken care of, anyone going through this process would attest that they feel taken care of by life, even if the mind feels uncertain. In a way, when you go through this process you are in the lap of life, and it will ensure that you find the least disturbance towards fully engaging with this process.
You may feel the desire to be alone – It’s very natural during this phase to desire to spend time with yourself. In this society where spending time alone is looked upon in horror, it can be difficult to convince your friends, family or spouse to allow you some space to yourself. But eventually it’s a choice you need to make, especially when there is a strong urge in you to just be with yourself.
Old realities can come crumbling down – Depending on how disconnected your reality was, the elements of your reality that are not congruent with your true nature will all start moving away from your presence. It takes a lot of trust in the process to see through this dissolution in your external reality, but once you understand that what’s dissolving are elements that were never congruent with you, you know that it’s not a loss rather it’s a “clearing up”. Elements in your reality that are congruent with you, will stay back. So in that sense this process is a test of how disconnected your reality really was, and which elements are congruent with you and which ones were just toxic or misaligned.
You may feel alone, weathering this dissolution, and it’s again a part of this process, to help unearth all your hidden fears (mostly about being on your own) so that they can be released. Actually everything you fear comes up in you, if you avoid it, things just happen in a manner that cause these fears to come up – it’s all part of the detox, there is no hiding. All your negativity comes up, there is nothing that you can avoid, if there is negativity in you it will come up to be released, there is no getting away from it. Adyashanti, an American teacher, put it accurately when he said something like this (though using poetic terms) – “At the start you are chasing the divine, but at one point the divine starts chasing you, and that’s when you feel like the hunted”. You may see events getting orchestrated that seem to bring up all your suppressed negativity, and all your fears. This is necessary so that you can empty out of the negativity, and transcend the fear. I am being very “literal” when I say that you will become 100% fearless towards the end of this process – for this to happen, you will end up facing all your fears, and the ones you avoid, life will orchestrate events in a manner that cause you to face it – but rest assured none of these orchestrations defect/harm your well-being in any real sense, it’s all done very intelligently.
It can feel a little disorienting to know that there would be no escape from facing all your negativity – it’s no longer just an “casual” pre-occupation, it becomes a real deal. At one point, I started looking forward to seeing what situations will come up to make me face the fears or negativity within, because I could see it was just a process of “growth” and no real harm was intended in any way – there is even a term for this in spirituality called “fierce grace” where it’s no longer about tenderness, but about putting you through a situation that makes you face up to all the fears you were avoiding. That’s why the pointer is to not cling to bliss while this process is on, it’s much easier when you are prepared for the release of negativity than hoping for the periods of bliss. Permanent wholeness comes towards the end of this process, where you feel totally free of the grip of negativity/fear of the mind.
You will be well taken care of – If there is one thing I noticed clearly during this process is the amazing intelligence of life to take care of arranging for whatever it is that needs to get done. You just feel like you are in the presence of a strong force of intelligence, which knows what it’s doing – even though the mind has a hard time facing all the uncertainty. Some solutions can come at the last minute, but they do come, and the fear that the mind feels while waiting for the solution is part of the detox, to transcend the fear. It’s a transition process where realities that were supported by the negativity in your mind, and body, start coming down and new realities aligned with your natural expression start taking shape – transition is never a comfortable deal, because the mind has a hard time dealing with change, but all along you will sense a grace being present, even when you are not trusting of it.
Look to enjoy the process – There are two ways in which you can make this journey of releasing your negativity, you can either enjoy the process or hate it. Either ways, once the release starts happening, it only rests when its fully done with. You have the choice of enjoying this process or complaining about it. When I say enjoy, I don’t mean you will be blissed out all the time, it just means to enjoy the release as it happens even when it’s intensely negative – we do enjoy roller coasters even if it creates stark fear in our body, right? When you start enjoying this process the release happens much faster, and more intensely, because now you are more open to it – the benefit is that the process gets done with more quickly. Allow all the fears that come up, allow all the negativity that arises, don’t try to suppress it, don’t avoid it, don’t over-analyse it, and this process will get done in the shortest time possible for you (depending on the load) – it’s all about allowing, this allowing is what makes you spacious within.