At the Core of Mind’s Fear – Trusting Life
At the core of almost every psychological fear in the mind is a deep-seated mistrust towards life. I continue to use the word “mind” to represent the thinking aspects in our human self as well as our non-physical self (the soul). If you don’t believe, or are skeptical, about your identity as a soul, or […]
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Glad that you started posting again
Hello Sen, I am very happy that there is a brand new post on your blog, which is a great inspiration for me.
I became interested in selfdevelopment because of my health issues which are life threatening and at the same time there is no known cure for them in classical medicine. I was diagnosed 17 years ago, given possibly only a short life expectancy. Now I am 34, my health Is not good, but I believe that the fact that I am still alive and even have a part time job and small music band Is by great part thanks to my focus on meditations, selfinquiry and other methods. Not because of them on their own but because of the change of perception on many aspects of life they led me to. When I found your blog, I was excited that I found something which made even much more sense to me, resonated with me and what was much deeper than what I had been doing. When I started with total allowing after reading whole your blog, I had a period of kind of high when I might have tasted the right attitude of allowing. It felt very liberating, but then I always got back to too focused or efforted attitude, which is closer to mindfulness than to allowing or relaxed awareness. I always had a feeling that I am aware just with another part of my reason based mind.
I would love to go through the release you are describing as I believe I already got a small taste of it, but I must be honest, that it seems like a process that might take few years. Which is completely all right. But my first goal is to cure myself. So far I experienced greatest health improvements when I found an attitude in myself, that I would call self-kindness or self-value-based feelings. This required tuning more into heart. From point of view of this blog posts, It sounds like a too efforted practice. Though I want to ask you, Is it possible in your opinion to integrate this attitude as a mid-level of the process? I mean to go from being fully identified with mind to have a heart-based self-compassionate, less mind-identified attitude to the mind. And then go to total allowing? Or is it just unnecessary side step making whole process just less efficient and longer? I would be happy for your response or any other pointers you might have 🙂
Oh my god I can’t believe this! Sen! You’re alive!! Hahaha
All these years I’ve been coming back to this website. I hope you’re doing well. Thank you for everything.
Hi Sen
Thank you for these very insightful articles, the quality of my life has been enhanced with the understanding of life through your writings. One of the things that confuses me is that if life is a play between polarities how can one ever reach a balance where we feel peace , wont the peace again get disrupted for a negative emotion just because that is the nature of life. Are we here only to experience what life wants us to experience or do we have any freedom to choose what we want to experience. So is our true nature only that of a witness or can we choose what we witness.
Thanks
Soumya
Sen, it is good to see you make a new post. You blog has helped me so much understanding resistances and letting go. I’ve made so much progress but still sometimes struggle because the mind always wants to ‘control’ a situation or ‘know’ and have certainty, even though I have had so many positive experiences when fully letting go and trusting life to take care of things. I’m learning to embrace that more and more so it becomes my natural state of being. Realizing that joy and contentedness do not arise from force or effort but through allowing negativity to dissolve – you naturally align with the positive life force. Not needing to do anything. You just have to allow that leap into the ‘cloud of unknowing’.
Best,
– Barrett
Thank you Sen! Been waiting for you to post again.
I have a question pertaining to the release of suppressed energy.
I do my best to remain relaxed and open when it comes to the movements of energy in my body/mind (thoughts,feelings, emotions, etc) . So I do believe i am in the phase of release, of course my mind isn’t sure.
When Im practicing allowing for a period of time, let’s say 20 minutes, There are times when I feel something bubbling up to the surface (from my back to my stomach/chest area) it almost feels like air, but very uncomfortable. As soon as it reaches an apex, I can feel it disperse and of course it can be noisy, (comparable to an upset stomach) but I feel relief. Could this be a sign of releasing suppressed energy?
After 8 years of confusion and all the things that follow a realisation/knowing,your words have given me a clearer understanding of the process I’m going through,than you so very much.
Are you aware of the works from tom Campbell who wrote the book “my big toe”?
Welcome back, Sen. Your articles have helped me a lot these last couple of years. Thank you 🙂 Keep doing what you do 😀
Thanks Sen. Your posts helped me have some sort ofba spiritual awakening over a year ago. My life has improved a lot in this time although part of me was identified with a time limit based on your posts that I would be “completely happy” within a year of letting go.
That has not happened for me. I still struggle and am aware of fear pervading my everyday experience moment to moment.
The thing is, I sense that it is wrong for me to push away the mind- and that I dont want to be disassociated and numb to life. I also know that so many thoughts are not reality and draw me into anxiety and fear.
I come to a dilemma that I need guidance on. I get paralyzed between not identifying with the negativity of the mind and being lost about what I want/how I truly feel. If I don’t identify with my mind then I feel lost as who am I? I cant feel the true I. I often get confused and stuck between pushing it away and the great pressure in me to follow the fears. I get stuck between numbness and compulsion that if I just do what I am afraid of then I will be happy. If I just try harder then I will be satisfied. I get stuck between no direction and being under the direction of fear and pain.
I would like to find peace.
Thank you so much.
Hi Sen,
I believe in everything you say and I have had some magical experiences thanks to you on my journey towards becoming one with the universe. But I have a question that I still haven’t been able to answer. If pain is the only thing that brings change which makes us look within, then is it fair to say that you cannot really further your journey to consciousness by just reading? Unless you have a painful experience pushing you forward none of this reading is really going to help. Is it useless reading all this and trying to understand yourself just fueled by curiosity and wanting to improve?
Good to see you back big man 🙂
Welcome Back Sen. Nice to have a post after a while. This post points to connecting with your life stream. I am at this juncture. Mind’s pull is no longer satisfactory. The only impediment I think is the conditioned mindset of knowing everything in advance. For e.g. I would like to start my own business, but not sure of what direction to go. Sometimes I feel this connection with life stream, its like a blue print but then as you mentioned “uncertainty.” Can you suggest how to pass this phase from mindset of knowing first to going with the pull of life which is “unknown,”especially in objective life.
Thank God you have returned to posting, I refer to this site at least twice a week for guidance, insights and reminders and have referred soo many others who like me sometimes get lost in the nonsense of the mind. This site is such a blessing, thank you for returning and more importantly for not taking it down. Deeply in gratitude =) Happy New Year!
On the spiritual side, I have had the experience of “no self” on energy and perspective level and often there is coolness in heart and brain area but I am still missing something. I am sure you can point out. I think it is the mindset if lack which is the major impediment in my spiritual as well as objective progress. Your post says it is uncertainty, I think deeper it is lack. Please put some light on it.
Also I forgot to mention, I dont have a fb account anylonger, pls make it possible to share your wisdom on instagram.
Thanks again
First of all pardon me for my bad English.For me it was really hard to trust life ,but few weeks back only when I was doing relaxed awareness suddenly a deep understanding Come to mind and it resolved a small anxiety that I had for few weeks related to some particular issue. I am almost done with my let go phase, and my blessing always come out for you the way you helped me through this blog. I was suffering from anxiety n depression for almost 10 years n I was taking medication too, but nothing helped me much, then suddenly I found your blog one day ( now I am realizing while writing this to you that Life has only helped me and find your blog as I was deeply wanted to free of anxiety,depression). My all best wishes n my deepest blessings are always with you. You helped lots of ppl on this earth to overcome from mental suffering.I feel like Thank You is very small word but I don’t know what to say to you! God bless you Sen!
First of all pardon me for my bad English.For me it was really hard to trust life ,but few weeks back only when I was doing relaxed awareness suddenly a deep understanding Come to mind and it resolved a small anxiety that I had for few weeks related to some particular issue. I am almost done with my let go phase, and my blessing always come out for you the way you helped me through this blog. I was suffering from anxiety n depression for almost 10 years n I was taking medication too, but nothing helped me much, then suddenly I found your blog one day ( now I am realizing while writing this to you that Life has only helped me and find your blog as I was deeply wanted to free of anxiety,depression). My all best wishes n my deepest blessings are always with you. You helped lots of ppl on this earth to overcome from mental suffering.I feel like Thank You is very small word but I don’t know what to say to you! God bless you Sen!
Great to see you back at this page, Sen! I found your page for the first time back in 2014.
Hi Sen, why is the mind considered to not be one with life, or why is it considered to be separate? I get that perhaps its nature is inclined to not understand life’s movement, but if the mind arises from life, then is it not also a part of life’s movement and also one with life?
Hello Sen, I started reading this blog in 2017 and since then it’s been a huge help and an invaluable guide to me throughout the years. At that time you had stopped writing here regularly and I thought you probably had moved on to a different endeavor. When this post came up, I was very delighted and also a bit surprised as well that I had to double-check because the last time you wrote a post was in 2014. It made me wonder what suddenly impelled you to write again? Just curious!
Sincerely,
Lara
Dear sen
I have read a lot of your articles and they have helped me a lot . I started reading them a few months back and I have covered some ground since then in terms of expanding my awareness . But i have one doubt which keeps springing up .
I understand that when we move from a relaxed place , we are connected to life intelligence and when we move from an impulsive state , it cuts us off of life intelligence . I am able to maintain a relaxed state for a considerable period but then there are some impulses that If I chose to ignore it , my mind becomes too rebellious and if I choose to give in there is a chance it will pass over but there is also is a chance it will take me back to autopilot for a long time . I get totally confused at this point . Whenever such impulses generate , i am totally at the mercy of chance .
Do u have any advice?
Dear sen
I understand that being relaxed means we are connected to life intelligence and being impulsive means we are on our own . I get this and I am able to stay cool inspite of a number of impulses but there are some impulses which if i choose to ignore make my mind very rebellious . At the same time giving in to them may or may not solve the problem . Sometimes they loose their hold on me when I give in . Sometimes they only get me more unsettled . Whenever such impulses arise , i am at the mercy of chance.
Do u have any advice?
Thanks for this! Great to hear from you, hope your are well. Warm regards from Africa
Hi Sen, great to see you’re back! Is it possible to contact you by email?