The process of finding inner freedom boils down to allowing the dissolution of all the emotional, and mental, momentum created by “resistance-based” thinking, or what I would call the “momentum of resistance”. The end of the momentum of resistance is the beginning of the foundation of openness, which is the requisite for inner freedom. However, the truth is that most of our thoughts are bound to have an element of resistance, for example, a good feeling thought is in resistance to a bad feeling thought, or a light-natured thought is in resistance to a dark-natured thought. You can notice how most of your thinking is along the lines of comparison, detest/dislike, uncertainty (about the future or about yourself), and desire for betterment, and all of this is what can be termed “resistance-based” thinking where you are in resistance with “what is” present in your current reality. It’s not possible to just have “wholeness-based” thoughts, in fact “resistance-based” thoughts are vital to the experience of growth and the expression of something new – for example, the desire for improvement automatically requires you to think in terms of resistance towards “what is”. The only problem is when there is a build-up of the momentum of resistance, when you are unconsciously holding on to the resistance, thus being over-identified with it.
The bottom-line is that it’s the momentum of accumulated resistance which is the problem. Resistance accumulates when you are “unduly” identified with resistance-based thinking, thus lacking an openness in your being. Consider a white-board on which you place a small black dot, now if you bring your eyes closer to the black dot it will seem to get bigger (and if you keep your eyes just 1 cm away from the black dot, the black dot is all you can see) – this is what “undue identification” feels like. When you move your eyes away from the black dot you start seeing more and more of the white board, and at the distance of a couple of meters away from the board you can see how small the black dot is – this is what it means to have the foundation of openness as a background to resistance-based thinking, it allows you to see the black dot in perspective with the space of the white board. When you live from a place of “undue identification” the resistance keeps building simply because the resistance is all that you are focused on.
Resistance-based thoughts are not the problem
The problem is not with having resistance-based thoughts, the problem is with “undue identification”. Stop trying to make your thinking totally “wholeness-based”, it’s just not possible – in fact, this very “trying” can becomes a cause for more resistance. Just to give you a perspective of what wholeness-based thinking implies, consider the thought of adding two simple numbers (for example, 2+2), this thought should ideally create no resistance in you, and you can simply see this thought as being “neutral” – this is an example of a wholeness-based thought. Now consider the thought of multiplying two numbers (say, 485 multiplied by 98, without a calculator, in your mind), in most case this thought can create resistance for many reasons – you may hate maths (detest), you may think about how much more interesting it is to watch a movie than to be calculating numbers in your head (comparison), you may feel anxious about getting a wrong answer (uncertainty) or you may start thinking about how weak your mental multiplication skills are and feel a desire to improve it (desiring improvement/growth). These are all examples of resistance-based thinking and given the situation they are “natural” and not a problem by themselves. Now consider that you spend the entire day focusing on hating maths (rooted in detest), or say you spend the entire day focusing on your weakness regarding mental multiplication, this is what it means to be rooted in “undue identification”, which is what creates a momentum/accumulation of resistance in you. So, basically, the resistance-based thought by itself just creates a momentary resistance and is “natural”, but your “undue identification” leads to an accumulation of this resistance which causes a momentum to build up.
Resistance-based thinking can’t be avoided in life, and, as I mentioned earlier, it’s actually a vital requirement for the experience of living. What’s required is to develop the space of openness where you can work with resistance-based thinking without becoming unduly identified with it. Resistance-based thoughts are not a problem if you are not rooted in undue identification, in that case these thoughts are simply a means to experience creativity, improvement, productivity, entertainment and perception (you will notice that in most cases, a perception requires a comparison or contrast). There is a section of the self-improvement genre of teaching which is obsessed with “positive thinking”, and then there is a section of spiritual genre of teaching which is obsessed with whole-based thinking (like thinking about oneness, unconditional love, living in the present etc) – though there is a place for these teachings depending on the individual’s journey, based of his/her level of awareness, one eventually needs to become aware of the under-current of suppression towards resistance-based thinking inherent in such a teaching, and realize that this suppression actually leads to more imbalance.
Developing the foundation of openness in your being
When you have a foundation of openness, in your being, the type of thinking (whole-based or resistance-based) doesn’t matter because you are no longer over-identified with anything. This foundation of openness is required to have the capacity for wisdom-based thinking, where you are not influenced either by the emotional pull, or the mental pull, rather your actions come from a place of objective wisdom (or reality-based wisdom). So, instead of worrying about your thoughts, what’s required is that you develop an openness in your being first. Once you have the foundation of openness you can work with any form of thinking, and thus with any situation.
You will have to look at developing the foundation of openness as a phase, or process, by itself. Like any process it takes time and it requires understanding. This openness happens at two levels
1. The openness in your attitude as a being
2. The release of past momentum
Just because you’ve developed an attitude of openness doesn’t mean that your past accumulated momentum will get released overnight. An attitude of openness can be developed if one is willing to understand the purpose of this attitude, however the release of the past accumulation (created in the attitude of undue identification) does take time to get released, and it happens in layers. When you are in the midst of this process, of releasing the past momentum, it can feel frustrating because you can’t know when the release will get done with fully – it’s like being in the middle of sand storm, you never know when it’s going to end but it does eventually run out. However, it’s also true that once you’ve allowed some form of a release (say 40-50%) you start connecting more with your inner space (or space of being) which directly allows for better guidance, positive synchronicities and wisdom to start operating in your life, which accentuates your progress towards faster release and alignment.
I talk about this attitude of openness, in detail, in the below posts
Reaching a place of total allowing – This post details the journey towards reaching the place of total openness in your being, starting from a place of low awareness, developing stronger awareness, working on letting go of identification and finally reaching a space of inner freedom in terms of being totally open to anything that arises within as thought or emotion.
FAQ on the state of allowing – This post answers some common questions regarding the “how to” of the state of allowing.
The attitude required for inner freedom – In this post I talk about the essential attitude required for total allowing which involves the willingness to stand without holding on to any understanding, assurance, or belief, as a crutch
The phase of release is a temporary phase that one needs to go through in order to let go of all the past accumulated momentum, however it can be challenging just like any detox process in that there is an outpouring of all the suppressed, or imbalanced, emotional energy, that comes up for a release. One can feel confused if one does not understand what’s really going on. I talk about the dynamics involved in the release of past momentum in the below posts
The brain, the heart, and the law of attraction – In this post I give a perspective on the biological/physiological aspects involved between the heart and the brain in how they can mutually keep refueling/amplifying the past momentum causing the state of obsessive thinking.
Releasing mind momentum is the key – Here I talk about some aspects of the journey towards releasing past momentum, especially the uncertainty, the requirement of patience and the withdrawal symptoms (withdrawal from past momentum).
Eliminating Anxiety – One of the biggest challenges towards releasing past momentum is to deal with the brain’s aspect of reinforcing neural pathways by generating brain-waves that match the past patterns. In this post I talk about a product called Brainev, that uses a specialized brainwave entrainment technology, which I find to be highly effective in training the brain towards a balanced state by using simulated brain-waves.
The above are just a few key posts regarding this topic of developing the foundation of openness, there are several other posts which discuss aspects of this journey towards inner freedom.
Having deep realizations, and gaining reality-based understandings, are like an invitation towards developing the foundation of openness. If you try to hang on to these “realizations”, as a crutch, you are already defeating the inherent purpose of the realization which was to develop “openness”. I come across several mails where people talk about how they had a moment of amazing realization, where they felt free and aligned, and how they “lost” it in sometime – the truth is that you don’t lose a realization, it’s just that the past momentum comes back, which makes you feel that you are not living from the understanding that you had in that moment of realization. These moments of realization can be beautiful, but one also needs to understand that there is still the past momentum to let go of; it’s just that these realizations give you a better perspective on life/reality, and are thusly an invitation towards releasing the past momentum created from deluded perspectives and undue identification.
The foundation of openness is not an end-point
The foundation of openness is not an end-all or some final destination to reach – there is no such end-point in life; the very nature of life is eternal movement. The delusion of reaching some end-point is one of the most anti-reality based thinking and is the core reason for a sense of a “let down” or a sense of wanting to hold on to something. The foundation of openness is the base for an evolved way of living where your thinking is wisdom-based rather than based on some past momentum, where your motivations are driven from a place of inner freedom rather than from a place of being powerless (being pulled around by your emotional/mental momentum), where you are receptive to observing/understanding reality in an objective manner since you are no longer afraid of letting go of delusional thinking and connecting with reality in its aspects of light and dark nature, where you can start understanding your “physical mind” (brain/heart/body) thus work towards living an expression that’s aligned with your unique physical attributes and experiencing what your current physicality affords.
So, as you can see, your journey, as a being, doesn’t end by connecting with your foundation of openness/wholeness, rather it just starts off a new level of living. It’s not about becoming “unconditional”, rather it’s about having a foundation of unconditional openness and using it to work the conditional aspects of your mind/thinking. Your thinking will always have conditional elements in it, but one needs the space of openness to bring a wisdom, and balance, to the conditional thinking. For example, just because you are rooted in the foundation of openness, or inner freedom, doesn’t mean that you will feel unconditional love towards everything/everyone; if your neighbor’s teenage kid rocks his blaring metal music just when you are heading to sleep you will naturally dislike the disturbance and would take it up with your neighbor in a manner that’s suitable. From the foundation of openness you can work from your resistance-based thinking while being aligned with circumstantial wisdom, and also, you won’t be rooted in the resistance-based thinking, lost to the momentum of resentment, anger or frustration. The openness not only allows for wisdom, but also ensures that you have a sense of inner stability with respect to any situation that you encounter, nothing grips you in a vice like hold.
Your mind will always work from a place of having conditional thinking or resistance-based thinking, that’s how “preferences” are born, and preferences are what bring forth diverse expressions that allow for the life-energy, that we are, to experience itself in various ways. Trying to be “totally” unconditional in your thinking is not only a futile endeavor but also unnatural in that it’s not aligned with the nature of growth that’s inherent to you as life-energy or the dark-nature aspect. If you look at being unconditional as the “light nature” and being conditional as the “dark nature”, a true balance will involve using the foundation of being unconditional to work with the conditional, thus bringing an integration of the light and dark nature (or yin/yang). It’s not one or the other, it’s one and the other, in unison, in balance.