There’s a lot of awareness among people, at present, about “staying at peace with the Now”, especially since the popularity of the many spiritual teachings and literature in the last few years, in this information age. This awareness, about the amount of restlessness in the body and the endless agitation in the mind towards wanting a future moment or regretting a past moment, is quintessential towards waking up from the mind’s negativity. However, the very pointer of “staying at peace with the moment” could easily become yet another technique in the mind, where it starts making an effort to be at peace – the mind cannot “do” this, except may be temporarily through forcing some form of silence onto itself. This pointer actually is not something to “do”, but about a recognition of the possibility of a state of being, and this state of being is something you come to naturally when your mind momentum ebbs away – it’s not something you achieve through the mind, rather it’s something you see is the natural state when the mind has lost its momentum.
If you are trying to be at peace with the moment, using your mind, you are basically just suppressing what’s arising naturally in this moment – when you have a high mind momentum, and suppressed energy in the body, there is bound to be “restlessness”, it can’t be avoided. The way you come to a natural state of wholeness/inner-calm is when you allow the restlessness totally, instead of fighting it – and this state of inner-wholeness is “permanent”, not a fleeting one, so if you sense an inner-calm now and then, don’t chase it (it’s not the final deal), just know that once your mind momentum has ebbed away and your suppressed energy of the past is released, you will come to this state of inner-calm automatically as a permanent state. It’s pure physics, that once your mind has run out of momentum, it ceases to create resistances in your being and hence you don’t oppose the movement of life-force, and hence you feel at peace in all moments, you feel at home with the Now without trying to do so.
Don’t “try” to be at peace
If you have to try to be at peace, it’s just your mind doing its “strategies” again. If you can let go of this mindset of looking for temporary peace, you can easily come to this place of permanent inner peace. When you are stuck in searching for the temporary peace, you are rooted in the mind, and the mind just keeps using some strategy, or technique, to attain some temporary peace now and then. This way you are never going to feel a sense of real freedom, because there is always the effort to be at peace.
If you let go of trying to be at peace, or trying to be happy, or trying be positive, you finally let go of the mind strategies, and hence you let go of the mind – you let go of trying to solve your life through your mind. Only when you let go of the mind can its momentum truly start reducing. It doesn’t take more than a few months for the mind momentum to ebb away by 60-70%, once you let go of trying solve your life through the mind – people who’ve really let go even for a couple of months see a huge difference in their inner stability. Instead, if you are like some “cynical” person, who keeps defending negativity, who keeps saying “this is too tough” or “it can’t be that easy”, you are basically buying into the mind and hence will stay stuck in fueling its momentum.
The only reason why people don’t let go of their mind is because of this need for “temporary relief”, which is a natural drive but it’s something that keeps you a hostage to the mind. Even questions like “am I doing this right” or “I am not able to let go”, are all just thoughts that the mind throws up, and if you don’t buy into these thoughts, you will stay in a state of allowing – you need to see through this simple trick of the mind to get your attention, all it has to say is “Am I doing this right”, and you give it all your attention and become worried. It’s not about doing it right or wrong, it’s about letting go of the mind oriented “figuring out” for a while, which includes not buying into its doubts or questions.
Also be willing to commit a few months to this process, and don’t keep checking in everyday about whether you are making progress. It takes time for the mind momentum to reduce, and while it does so, there will be days when the momentum goes to a peak when it gets combined with the release of suppressed energy – it doesn’t mean that you are regressing, it just means that the release is in full swing. I can understand the sense of panic that can arise when the release is in full swing, but now that you know that it’s normal, you can be at peace with it. And if your mind asks “Am I doing this right”, “why is nothing changing”, “what can I do to make it fast”, all these are just the mind looking for a technique, just don’t buy into it. This process is not about the mind, the mind is not the one who is going to “do” this, it’s about letting go of the mind – and if the mind says “but I am not able to”, just let go of this thought also, because if you buy into this thought you will stay stuck in this loop.
Wholeness is your natural state of being
Restlessness is the state of being when the mind has a high momentum. Restlessness can take any form – obsessive thoughts, anxiety, stress, unpredictable behavior, over excitement, over aggression, greed, over indulgence, physical symptoms (like ticks) and imbalances of different kinds. The root causes of all of this is that you have a high mind momentum and possibly a high amount of suppressed negative energy, that’s all, nothing else. It doesn’t matter what your specific symptoms are, the root cause is always the same. And though there are many temporary relief deals you can end up with, none of them gives you a permanent solution because you are not addressing the real problem. Unless you are willing to consciously release the suppressed energy and consciously reduce the mind momentum (by letting go of the mind), by going through a period of release, which does entail discomfort, you don’t empty out the negativity and hence you don’t come to your natural state of being which is permanent inner wholeness.
I am sure you’ve had a fore-taste of what inner wholeness feels like, especially during the moments when the mind just takes a break. And then you try to re-create this experience through doing some mind techniques, and then you end up in an endless loop of chasing this peace, like a dog chasing its tail. But this peace is already here, it’s not something you get to, it’s something you realize is always here when the mind momentum dies away. Reducing the mind momentum is the pre-requisite to aligned living – without getting to this place first, you cannot experience a sense of aligned living. However, as your mind momentum reduces, and your suppressed past negativity gets released, you will sense a lot of shifts happening in your reality that keeps moving you into your natural expression and harmonious surroundings (though some of these shifts may be interpreted by the mind negatively because it can’t see the bigger picture).
Practices have an initial value, but eventually you need to let go
This inner wholeness is not something you “maintain”, it’s just a permanent state when there is no mind momentum to disturb it. And once your mind loses its momentum, through a conscious letting go, it doesn’t regain this momentum – it’s not possible because life force becomes too strong to allow the mind to regain negative momentum, and the fact that you are “conscious” now ensures you are not lost in fueling negativity unconsciously.
The bottom line is don’t “try” to stay present, don’t try to be positive, don’t try to be happy – rather just let go of these efforts in the mind, and allow the mind momentum to ebb away so that you can come to your natural state of permanent inner wholeness. In this place you are always at home with the moment, you are always totally aligned with the Now of life, you are always at peace within, your happiness is not dependent on anything it’s just your natural state, and by happiness I don’t mean that you will be giggling all the time I just mean that you will feel resistance-free all the time in your body (a permanent alive peace), not as an effort or a “contrived” state, but as your natural state. And this doesn’t mean that you will end up like some hermit (unless that’s your calling, what you naturally desire), you will just be yourself, and live out your true potential fully in your creative expression and emotional expression.
Of course, I am not discounting that there is a time and place for some practices, especially when you are just starting out and growing in awareness – like the practice of watching the mind, or connecting with the inner stillness (space of being). But you should be careful not to get addicted to the practices, because all practices require the mind’s effort. Rather, when you sense that a practice has served its purpose of helping you become aware enough to have the courage to let go of the mind, just take up this invitation of letting go fully. You are not here to live a life of “practicing” stillness, there are better things to do in this physical life, better things to enjoy – when you let of the mind momentum, you come to this permanent place of inner wholeness, and then live out your life of physicality to the fullest of your expression/potential because you are now resistance free. So all of this process is in service to enjoying physicality from a place of your natural expression, it’s not something that’s supposed to detach/disconnect you from enjoying physicality.