In our culture we are conditioned to believe that our highest endeavor should be the “pursuit of happiness”. Anyone who’s willing to be “awake” can see that this has been the recipe for all suffering. There have been wars fought in the pursuit of happiness. People struggle through their whole life hoping to achieve happiness in the end. The planet is worse off from the various activities undertaken under the assumption that it will lead to happiness.
Is it not easy to see that if you are pursuing happiness you are sacrificing your present for an imagined future. The personal will is always looking at the future and it insanely forces you to toil, struggle and make effort, in an attempt to secure a happy future. Unfortunately, this “happy” future always seem to elude the person. He/she might attain some happiness once in a while after achieving something, but this happiness fades away quickly to be replaced by more struggle and suffering. Is this the kind of life you want to live?
Life is not about pursuing happiness, it’s all about expressing happiness. However, you cannot express happiness if you are not in a place of permanent happiness. Only the “person” tends to believe that happiness needs to be attained. Life is inherently happy all the time, it does not need to attain anything to be happy. Permanent happiness is your true nature, but the “person” can never attain it. Once the person dissolves, happiness is all that remains. Gautham Buddha spelled this truth quite simply in the statement “No self, No suffering”.
The “me” is a force created through a misunderstanding, or ignorance, in the mind of the reality, or the truth. The “me” starts using its will to sustain itself and pursue goals that it imagines will make it happy. The will of the “me” is the personal will. If you look at your own experience you will notice that the “me” is seldom happy or satisfied. The “me” is a construct which needs to be sustained constantly, for without this constant effort to sustain itself the “me” will start dissolving in force. So the “me” indefinitely struggles to keep adding “content” to itself and tries to protect itself from diminishing in any way. The personal will is the force the “me” uses to sustain itself. The “me” can never experience permanent happiness, or satisfaction, because it can never really relax for long.
When you start letting go of the “me” force, you will automatically start resting in the space of being. This space of being will become more and more powerful as the personal will, or the “me” energy, starts dissolving. You will notice that in the absence of “me” there is always happiness, because who you really are is joy itself. You will experience the joy of life every moment, irrespective of the situation you are in.
It’s really funny how you are searching for scraps of happiness while sitting on top of an ocean of happiness. The “me” has to go so that your true nature can come forth. You have to embrace the loss of the personal will, before you can experience the freedom that’s your birth right. Who you are is free every moment, who you are is joyful every moment. The “person” will never experience this joy because the “person” is what is clouding it.