Everything is essentially “energy” and hence follows all the laws pertaining to energy. One of the truths about energy is that – “energy can neither be created or destroyed, it can only change forms”. We create an imbalance of emotional energy by inhabiting the state of imbalanced thinking and its accumulation, in turn, leads to the fueling of more imbalanced thinking, thus creating a cycle of perpetuation. All this imbalanced energy, that gets created, does get stored up in many ways, it cannot simply get destroyed, and the only way to dissolve the imbalanced energy is to convert it back into balanced energy. Once you become aware of your state of imbalance, and thus start looking for a way to move towards a balanced life, the most critical step for you would be to first convert all the imbalanced energy back to balance before you can really start living from the place of balance – this phase of “conversion” is what I call the phase of release, and the phase where you start living from the place of balance is what I call the phase of return of focus. The phase of release is actually all about converting the past-accumulated imbalanced energy to balanced energy, and it’s an active process in that it requires your involvement in consciously allowing this transmutation to take place.
The “imbalanced energy” is stored up not only in your physical body but also in your non-physical body (other words I would use for the same are your ethereal body, soul, cosmic body or your “being” aspect). The physical body is created from the energy of your parents who contain the energy of your ancestors, in other words it’s a creation that stems from the energy of your “Gene pool” – thus, the imbalanced energy created by the ancestors is passed along to the offspring. This is why a physical body can be born with imbalanced energy from the onset and then imbue more of the same through the cycle of perpetuation. When your being inhabits a body, or becomes focused on a body, you have to contend with the imbalances that may be present in this physical body. And, if you have imbalances in you, as a being, you are simply going to add to this cycle of imbalance when your negativity gets identified with the negativity already present in the physical body. You may also inhabit a body which is relatively free of imbalances and may bring in imbalances into it from the imbalanced energy you may be carrying as a being. A being who has attained conscious balance retains the knowledge of this balance and such a being can inhabit a physical body, that has a lot of imbalances, and bring a balance to it. Attaining, and expressing, “conscious balance” is an art, or a learning, or a skill, or an ability, that once learnt becomes embedded in your being and thus allows you to bring balance into any imbalance that you may touch.
The chief understanding that’s required to bring conscious balance is that of the “state of allowing“, which is the only way to instigate a conscious release and thus instigate an opening for transmutation of imbalance into balance. Once you gain this understanding, about what the state of allowing entails, you will need to exercise this understating towards transmuting all the imbalanced energy that you may have created (or inherited), which is what the phase of release is. Once you are done with the phase of release, you are done with all the past accumulation and you also have the understanding/awareness to no longer create any new imbalances, thus you are in a position to now start from a clean slate and write a balanced story. The phase of release involves certain dynamics of its own and it’s important to understand them so that you have a compass to navigate through this phase. I’ve listed below some of the most common dynamics involved in the phase of release with an explanation of how to work with it.
Attaining an understanding about openness – When you have the right understanding, it’s much easier to navigate the phase of release, just like it is with any journey. The phase of release is all about the conversion of imbalanced energy into balanced energy, and this conversion requires a “converter”, you will have to perform the function of the converter. In the state of unconsciousness you were actually a “generator” of imbalanced energy because of imbalances in your thinking and a lack of openness (suppressing either the dark nature or light nature). In order to become a converter of imbalance, into balance, you will have to understand the attitude of openness which can be stated as – “be open to what arises, be it light natured energy or dark natured energy, don’t try to get rid of anything, just be like space”. This attitude of openness goes against the thinking of wanting control, or wanting to get rid of the negativity, and it talks about being open to allowing the negativity to arise fully and freely.
Openness does not mean that you say “yes” to what arises (in the sense of being motivated by it into action), it just means that you are open to allowing what arises. To say “yes” to what arises involves getting identified in some way. In other words, don’t say “no” to what arises, just allow it to arise without being lost to it, without getting identified with it. Think about being a space which is neither saying “yes” nor saying “no”, it’s simply open. This openness can seem passive but it actually requires a lot of awareness, if you lack the awareness you will simply get pulled in to what arises. Awareness gets built over time as you keep working on developing the space of openness, and vice versa. Awareness just means the capacity to “notice”, or observe, without getting blinded by the momentum, and you can develop this awareness by simply growing in the observation of what arises in you. Some people may have a strong awareness but they may lack the understanding of “openness” – awareness by itself does not dissolve anything until it’s used in conjunction with the state of openness.
Letting go of the need for the “good feeling” – The phase of release involves the “allowing” of imbalanced energies to surface. Only when the imbalanced energy can come into your consciousness can it be transmuted into balanced energy. Imbalanced energy does not “feel good”, or it may feel extremely good only to create a extreme low later. For example, when an imbalanced dark energy accumulation is getting released, you are bound to feel its unpleasantness, it could be felt as waves of anxiety, anger, sadness, depression, inferiority, boredom, restlessness or irritation, however, when an imbalanced light energy accumulation is getting released you can feel waves of over-excitement and exhilaration (of joy or love) which can also be unpleasant in that it makes your body feel the restless sensations. Imbalanced energy is always unpleasant, it’s just that the unpleasantness of the imbalanced dark energy is more evident than the imbalanced light energy. The phase of release is much faster if you can let go of the need for the “good feeling”. The logic is that if you keep wanting the good feeling you will never be able to fully open up to allowing the imbalanced dark energies to arise freely.
This also entails that you let go of the technique of “positive thinking” (or any techniques that are rooted in “trying” to apply some notion of positivity through affirmation or repetitive convincing). These techniques are totally unnecessary to start with and are mostly just “suppression mechanisms” where you try to blanket out the imbalances through the refuge of affirmations. In a state of balance you would not feel the need to enforce “positive thinking”, rather you just become naturally rooted in wisdom-based thinking or objective thinking – the whole notion of positive thinking eventually relies on resisting negativity instead of allowing the transmutation of the negativity into balanced energy. In fact, during the phase of release, you would need to let go of any control-based techniques (even those of focused meditations) so that you can be truly open to allowing the unearthing of imbalances within. You can, of course, get back to these meditation practices, or any other techniques, if you feel like it, when you are in a state of balance, especially if they are of assistance towards improving your productivity or if they provide some entertainment value.
It’s not about “how long” – It’s normal to want to know how long the phase of release is going to last, especially considering the fact that it’s not a very pleasant phase in terms of the energy movement. It can last for a few months, or a couple of years, or more, depending totally on the load you are carrying and on how “open” you are. The lack of openness is what really delays the release from taking place at a faster pace. It’s just that it can take a while for a person to really understand what “true openness” means in terms of living it (it’s easy to understand it as a concept but it’s a totally different deal when you start living it, because then the doubts start coming up and you start clinging to the doubts instead of being open). In fact, the attitude of asking “how long” by itself reflects a lack of openness. Someone who has become fully open could care less about how long a release takes, they’ve simply let go of the having a resistive reaction to it.
Getting over the “am I doing it right” – The deal about openness is to be open to anything that arises including doubts and fears of regression. If you understand the logic of openness you will also realize that it simply involves being allowing of anything including the possibility that you might be totally doing it wrong or you might be regressing or refueling negativity. True openness is free of the need to get it right, because any need to get it right comes from the fear of getting it wrong, and this fear is one of the resistances to freedom. When I understood the logic of “letting go” I also understood that I had to allow all the doubts, questions, confusions and uncertainties, without getting hooked on them – without such an attitude it wouldn’t be possible to be truly open. You need to look at the doubts, and uncertainties, as the dark nature aspects of energy and when they come up to be released they are bound to create negativity in the brain/mind. You have to exercise your understanding of openness and simply stay allowing of these movements. In fact the very deal of “why is this not ending”, or “when can I get back to being happy”, etc, are simply coming from a lack of understanding of the pointer of openness – if you are going to cling to the “idea” of reaching a certain state you are not really being open to allowing what’s arising.
I don’t feel anything getting released – It’s possible that you don’t really have much accumulation of imbalanced energy in you, in which case you are not going to sense any real movement of release in your being/body. It just means that you don’t have to work on the phase of release, rather you simply need to work towards “conscious living” by understanding yourself, in terms of your mind and personality, and understanding the deal of life (as mentioned in the posts – Being objective, light and dark nature of conscious living, Inspirations and deliberate choice, law of attraction and destiny). However, it’s also possible that you are simply not being still enough to allow a release, in that you are constantly keeping yourself occupied in some “mind activity”. If you feel strong emotions of anxiety, restlessness, frustration, anger, sadness or boredom, in your daily living, it’s an indication that there is a momentum of imbalanced accumulation in you. What’s needed is to find some time, and space, to let go of clinging to the mind activity (or distractions) and allow your awareness to sense what’s going on within you. Of course, even if you are not willing to be aware, of what’s going on in you, your life will invariably keep bringing up (or unearthing) any imbalances that you may have through external events – it acts as an unrelenting mirror for you to see your imbalances.
Let go of blame – During the phase of release it’s best to make it totally about yourself. Use everything that happens to you, as an experience, to unearth your imbalances – let go of the attitude of complaining, blaming or fault-finding, towards the outside. I am not saying that you have to live this way all your life, just that this is the best attitude during the phase of release. Once you are in a state of balance you can work on judgments on the outside and working towards using reasoning, deliberate choices, and actions towards making changes to the outside. It’s just that during the phase of release you have to make it all about yourself and use everything as a means to unearth your imbalances. For example, lets say that your friend let you down by not being available when you needed him/her, at this moment you will feel like blaming him/her (and you may be justified in doing so), instead just allow the feelings of anger, sadness, resentment, loneliness, unfairness or helplessness, to arise without trying to assuage them by working on blaming the outside – you mind will hate allowing these feelings, and would try to get into the protective mechanism of complaining and blaming the outside, don’t go along with this pattern.
Remember that this is an attitude that’s needed only for the phase of release. In a state of balance you don’t have to work with this attitude, rather you would be in a position to make objective decisions based on your judgment of the situation without reactions of resentment, bitterness, powerlessness or emotional bias (for example, you may clearly see that your friend is not really a friend, and you let go of the association without resentment or blame, simply as a matter of being objective). When you have imbalances in you it’s not easy to connect with objective wisdom, and the tendency is to simply take action based on the emotional over-drive created by the situation, and thus there is always a lot of inner conflict and indecision surrounding your choices and judgment. The attitude during the phase of release is to simply make it all about yourself, using everything as a mirror to see what it unearths within you. When you sense an imbalanced reaction (or movement), in you, it’s an opportunity to allow the energy to arise and thus be transmuted.
Willingness to let go of past self-image – You can notice that your mind has created a certain self-image (like an actual image of you with some defined characteristics) based on your past, which could be from your past life-times or just past-experiences in your current life-time. This self-image is running on an “auto mode” (subconsciously) until you bring awareness to it. Once you become aware of this self-image, in your mind, you will notice that it’s just a pattern of thought that’s repeating with a momentum. You can notice if your self-image is rooted in some imbalanced patterns of thought in the form of statements or images or a combination of both (for example, your self-image may be rooted in thoughts like “I am so dumb”, “I am a bad person”, “I am hopeless/weak”, “I am awkward” etc or it may just be rooted in images of anxiety). The phase of release involves releasing the imbalanced aspects of your self-image. For this you need to let go of being identified with these patterns in your mind. Just be deeply aware of these repeating patterns in your mind and then work towards letting go of being identified with it while being in a state of allowing (you don’t have to try to suppress it or negate it forcibly, just let it be without identification, it will ebb away on its own).
This is also one reason why several spiritual teachings talk about “letting go of your egoic identity”, however this can be an ambiguous teaching because most people would interpret it as trying to become ego-less, thus trying to detach themselves for their sense of self. The deal is to let go of the imbalanced aspects of ego, or ego-force, so that you can come to a balanced ego, or a balanced sense of self. You have to make the conscious choice to let go of identification with these imbalanced patterns of self-image that you sense in your mind – without your conscious dis-identification these patterns will keep getting fueled sub-consciously.
Growth requires release of the past – The attitude of allowing a release is required even in the state of balanced living. What I call the “phase of release” is simply a way to reference this journey of releasing the unconscious accumulation while moving towards conscious living. However, even in the place of conscious living you will require to use the attitude of allowing a release to align with required growth, knowing that growth is eternal. When you want to grow towards a new reality you need to release all the identities, attachments and thinking related to the old reality. The ability to release, without resistance, is available to you once you develop the foundation of openness while going through this “phase of release”.
Letting go of personal will – This is by far the most confusing aspect of the phase of release mostly because it is the most threatening aspect as far as your mind is concerned. All minds require a sense of control, and this is normal. The problem is that in the state of unconsciousness we become a prisoner to this “requirement” in our mind and thus become control freaks in many ways. You may notice how your sense of security may be dependent on trying to control people close to you, or it may be dependent on how controlling you can be of yourself. Of course, control is needed sometimes as a part of wisdom, and in a state of balance you will have a better/objective judgment on when to control and how much to control, but in a state of imbalance the tendency is to use control as a means to compensate for your insecurities and hang-ups. Hence, during the phase of release, one of the requirements is to start letting go of the need to control (yourself, your life-situations or external elements) – this is only a temporary requirement needed during the phase of release, it’s not the mindset you will have to live with forever.
In other words, you will have to work on surrendering your personal will during this phase of release. This surrender will instigate feelings of insecurity, uncertainty, anxiety, anger, restlessness, confusion, nervousness, guilt and a sense of “death” (of identity) in you. This surrender is one of the most vital requirements to allow a faster release mostly because it’s this surrender that actually brings out all the insecurities of the mind. This surrender will allow the release of all the negativity you may be carrying towards the need for control, and once these imbalances are released you will have the right foundation to then allow for a “balanced control” as a part of objective living (which is what is involved in the phase of “return of focus”). So, you are letting go of control in order to come to a place of balanced control. In the place of “balanced control” you are not trying to control from a place of insecurity or fear, rather you bring in control as a part of objective wisdom – it has a completely different energy and vibe to it when your control is free of the need for security or motivation of imbalance.
It’s not possible for me to give you the exact way that you need to live your life from a place of surrender, because each of us has a different lifestyle which involves different elements and requirements – there is no one-fit-for-all strategy to be followed. You don’t have to end up in some spiritual retreat or a monastery, it may just not be practical neither is it required. What’s needed is that you understand the logic of what is being asked for – the logic is that you need to sense if your need for control is coming from a place of negativity, or imbalance, and if so, work on letting go of this control so that you are not run by these forces – it’s simply about gaining freedom from the imbalanced motivation. Once you have the freedom, you may get back to doing the same activities, that you were doing before, but you will not be doing it from the imbalanced motivations stemming from your negativity. You may not feel 100% functional, during this state of surrender, and your mind will come up with a lot of fears regarding this surrender, what’s needed is that you allow these fears to arise in your state of openness. Once you develop the ability to allow these fears, without being run by them, you are well on your way towards developing inner freedom and the intensity/momentum of these fears will subside in you.
For example, let’s say you are a highly active person who is constantly lost in activities through out your waking hours. During the phase of release it may be required that you let go of several activities that you were using as a means to control yourself (as a means to keep yourself from facing your inner insecurities or confusions or emotional movements) and simply allow yourself to face the restlessness, uncertainty, confusion, or the pull of mind-momentum, that arises. It’s very similar to what you feel when you let go of an addiction, the withdrawal symptoms start arising which can make you feel unsettled and cause you to go back to the addiction – the way to find freedom is to allow the withdrawal symptoms until they release on their own through the natural process of re-balancing. Once you’ve found this freedom you can get back to your activities in a balanced manner (you may see that you no longer are using activities as a means of escape and you have a deeper sense of choice, and deliberation, towards what you get involved with).
In the state of balance you can exercise your personal will, it’s just that the motivation will come from a place of wisdom rather than imbalance. It’s only the imbalance of your personal will that needs to get dissolved, and it can only happen in a state of surrender of control, for a while, during the phase of release. I get mails from people asking specific questions about their lifestyle – “should I do this or not do this, what if I screw up, I am feeling confused” – the answer would be that you first need to stop feeling dominated by the pull of this confusion or fear, allow the confusion, allow the fears that may arise, and sense if you have the freedom from the pull of your mind’s momentum; whether you do the activity or not is not really the point here, the point is to get a sense of your inner freedom from your mind momentum, from a mindset of lack and fear. There is a lot of leeway in life, there is no dearth of opportunities and solutions, if you lose one you get another, you don’t have to feel this sense of lack about letting go of something/someone (the sense of lack is sometimes the biggest motivation behind the need for control in a state of imbalance).
How do I start? – You can start with the attitude of bringing an “inward focus”, just being aware of what’s going on within you. For a while just work on being aware of your reactions, your moods, your emotional movements, your doubts, your insecurities and your suffering – just be aware without the need to sort it all out. Once you sense that you have some awareness of the imbalances in you, just start working on allowing them to arise while staying in a place of openness (also what I call “relaxed awareness”) – you can do this “allowing” as and when you sense the imbalanced momentum arising and also as a practice of sitting for 20-30 minutes, without distractions, per day, allowing the emotional and mental movement to have a free reign while you simply stay open to it all. In some recent posts I also talk about a product called Brainev which has mp3s, that run for 30 mins, that you can listen to, while being in a state of total allowing, which assist in unearthing the imbalances in you, through sound-wave simulations, allowing a deeper and deeper unearthing as you move through the levels each month (there are 6 levels of mp3) – you can read about some details about this product in the post “Eliminating Anxiety”. This product is useful in unearthing imbalances/negativity that you may not consciously allow, and they allow simulate balanced brain-waves to train the brain to dis-identify with the imbalances as it gets unearthed, and thus it assists in a faster movement towards balance – the reason I recommend this technology is because this is not a “feel good” product, it actually works on the principle of unearthing the imbalances so that it can be balanced and hence is aligned with the dynamics of the phase of release.
The logic of the phase of release is to stay in a place of conscious openness (or no resistance) towards the imbalanced movements that arise in you – be it the imbalance of light nature or dark nature. These imbalances can get unearthed by actual events that happen in your life, or through simulation (like using Brainev or using your own imagination to unearth the negativity), or even without any trigger in a passive state. The reason why openness brings a balance to the imbalances is because openness removes the resistance towards the imbalance while also removing identification with it – in the absence of resistance, and identification, there is nothing to fuel the imbalance and thus it naturally falls back into its inherent state of balance (just like a rubber-band, or a spring, falls back into its normal state when you let go of pulling it). Balance is the natural state of energy, and any form of energy will intrinsically move towards balance if it’s not constantly fueled by a force of imbalance – just like how water settles into a clear/calm state on its own once you stop disturbing it by throwing stones in it, without the disturbing influence it naturally falls/moves back into the balanced state, this is true for all of life-energy.
In conclusion, if you look at the whole picture of your journey as a being, there is the initial phase of unconsciousness, or lack of balanced/aware understanding, that leads to the creation and accumulation of imbalance (phase 1), the suffering created by this accumulation eventually causes you to seek a solution which leads you towards gaining a conscious understanding of balance (phase 2), this understanding (if it’s aligned) will lead you to become aware of your imbalances and go through a phase of release (phase 3), and once you are done with the release of the past momentum you have the right foundation for conscious living aligned with balance (phase 4), from there on it’s just eternal expression, and experience, coming from this state of consciousness. This blog covers the dynamics of all the phases involved in this journey, when you read a post you can get a sense of which phase it’s referring to, however, the phases are not always as sequential, you can have a inter-mix of different phases now and then, for example, you can be in a phase of release, or even in a state of balance, while also gaining deeper understanding about life (phase 2 and phase 3/phase 4 inter-mixed). The deal is to have the flexibility towards understanding the dynamics of this journey towards balance; rigidity is the antithesis of the attitude required for balance.