There’s a big difference between “letting go” of the Ego and “getting rid” of the Ego. When you are letting go of the Ego it’s a movement free of struggle and has a sense of “compassion” or love at the background. But when you try to get rid of the Ego, there’s an energy of fear and struggle involved in the movement. You automatically start letting go of your Ego when you recognize your true nature as pure consciousness (which makes you stop identifying with the Ego). Always remember only an Ego will try to get rid of the Ego.
Anything you fight will become more concrete in you
The paradox of life is that you cannot become free of anything by fighting it. If you have an addiction, the worst way to go about becoming free of it is by resisting or fighting it. When you resist something you automatically become shackled to it. In the same way, when you try to fight the Ego, or try to get rid of it or suppress it, you are unconsciously enhancing it.
The Ego is not an “evil”, it’s just a movement of energy that got created out of delusion. The delusion itself was innocent to begin with. When you focus on the “physical” nature of reality, it’s natural for the mind to move from the perspective of separation and derive its identity from a “self image”. The Ego structure, however, starts creating suffering because of its movement of clinging or attaching to forms, because it gets its identity through its attachments or possessions. The Ego feels insecure because it constantly needs validation for its survival.
Instead of fighting the Ego movement, or feeling guilty about it, what needs to be done is to see through its “falseness”. Once you recognize that the Ego movement is just a “pattern”, which is not permanent or real, you automatically free up identification from it. Once you stop being “suckered” in by the Ego movement, you are on your path of being free of it. It takes some time (a few months in some, a few years in some), before you can be totally free of being pulled in by the Ego movement.
Don’t resist any part of the Ego movement
Anything you “allow” completely, you will transcend completely. Anything you resist will persist. These words point to the core of what “letting go” is all about. You will notice several “dark” patterns come up while you start seeing through the Ego. As your consciousness becomes brighter, it will shine its light on all the “hidden” areas of your energy field, areas where your Ego can seek refuge when it’s unnoticed.
It’s important to not feel guilt, or make it personal, when certain “dark” patterns in you start coming to light. You may see yourself acting out an “addictive” pattern every time the Ego feels diminished or inferior. Watch this pattern, don’t judge it, and don’t become completely taken it by it. Retain some part of your consciousness even when the energy of the Ego movement is trying to take over the entire space of your attention.
People find it the hardest to become free of certain “dark” patterns in them because they are not willing to consciously allow it when it tries to take over. When you allow something “consciously” you are not taken in by its movement but you get to see the energy in action. As long as you suppress the energy, it will not be able to leave the space of your energy field. Remember that none of these patterns are personal; they are part of the accumulated energy that stayed back because you suppressed it at some level.
It’s usually the patterns that you feel guilty about, that become the refuge for the Ego because it can easily remain rooted there. Let go of the guilt, let go of your judgment, and witness the patterns from a place of compassion, only then will you become free of its influence. Becoming free of the Ego is not a battle; it’s a movement of love.