The state of wholeness may very well look like a “light natured” state on the outside, in many ways, but in truth it’s far more deeper than a light natured state. The experience of wholeness and the experience of joy are two different feelings altogether – joy is a purely light natured state, whereas wholeness is the balanced state that you come to when you’ve managed to integrate the dark and light energy in you. You must understand that the way I use the words like light, dark, positive, negative and wholeness are totally contextual to my way of defining them – some other teacher/writer may use the same words to point to some other context, for example some teachers may use the word “light” to define a state of wholeness/balance, and “dark” to define a state of imbalance. Whereas, I use the word “wholeness” (as well as “pure positive”) to define the state of balance, and light/dark as the two polarities of life-energy, and “negative” as a state of imbalance toward either polarities. It’s important to be clear about the context in which a writer uses his/her words because some words can take different meanings depending on how it’s used.
The missing link in most teachings that end up giving an incomplete understanding is that they use words like positive and negative in a black and white manner, asking you to avoid the negative and force yourself to be positive. The mind automatically assumes that by “negative” they are talking about the dark nature components, and hence starts trying to suppress this component through force, trying to cloak it with imposed positivity (light nature) of some form – this is when you start becoming “polarized” towards one nature, and this always leads to an imbalance of some form. “Suppression” is not the way to freedom ever, it only leads to imbalance, no matter what you try suppress in yourself – for example, when you try to suppress fear, you become more fearful, when you try to suppress sadness, you attract more sadness (because indirectly you are fearing sadness and your fear of it is like a direct interest/focus towards it). The way to wholeness is in the state of allowing, both, the light and dark nature components in you, till they balance out each other, thus coming to wholeness (also called “unity consciousness”). Oneness in it’s true meaning is to realize that dark and light are two polarities of the same “one” energy, and the only way to experience a state of wholeness is to integrate both these components in you.
The state of wholeness is a different experience altogether, it’s difficult to explain this place clearly without giving some imagination of it being “light natured” – I can use terms like stability, balance, peaceful joy, unshakeable calm, a causeless love, etc and they all ultimately look like “light natured” states but their experience is far deeper than any light natured state. When one is polarized towards a light natured state of being, one is in opposition to the dark natured components, and this opposition by itself is rooted in fear (or separation/dualistic thinking) and hence is not a state of oneness, it’s not a state of wholeness – it may feel “good”, for a while, but you will know that something is missing. In a state of wholeness you inherently know that nothing is missing, you feel home, you feel stable, you feel full-filled.
A state of wholeness is neither dark nor light
When you truly sense wholeness, you also sense that it doesn’t have the flavor of dark nature or the flavor of light nature – it has a flavor unique to itself. This is one reason why a lot of teachers say that it’s difficult to explain this state with words because all words are taken by the mind and referenced to some state that it already knows of, but since wholeness is a state that it has not tasted it does not have a reference for it and hence it always misunderstands the words. When I, now, see different teachers talking about this state of wholeness while using other words like oneness, love, light, divine or merging, I totally get what they are talking about because my mind has a reference for it, because of personal experience, but I remember totally misinterpreting the same teachings when I did not have a personal reference for it – it’s very normal to do so. I always misinterpreted these teaching to imagine that they were pointing to some light-natured state. This misinterpretation is usually the cause for endless seeking, for endless search, because you can’t experience the wholeness they talk about until you understand that they are not talking about a light-natured state but a state of balance.
When you become stabilized in a state of wholeness, you don’t sense any dark nature component in you individually, neither do you sense any light nature component in you individually – it’s like a different dimension of living. The feelings that you had when you were in a state of imbalance, and the feelings you have when you are in a state of wholeness are completely different experiences altogether, a totally new flavor. For example, the anger you feel in the state of wholeness is nothing like the anger you feel in a state of imbalance – this anger does not have the feel of the past anger as such, it’s difficult to even label it as anger. The same way the joy that you feel in a state of wholeness is completely different from the joy of the state of imbalance, it has a completely different taste to it. In one sense, you really don’t sense any dark or light components individually anymore, they are both merged fully and coherently into one. This is the place you will ultimately find yourself in as you move towards allowing the integration of the dark and light in you (by simply staying in state of total allowing).
As you reach the state of wholeness you start experiencing several inner changes, it’s like an unlocking of various pockets that were closed down before. These inner changes may be physical (like healing, change of skin tone etc), it may be at a mental level (change of personality, increased brain acumen etc) and of course at the emotional level in the way you experience relationships of all forms. If you have some knowledge of Chakra system in the body, it’s said that humans mostly abide in the lower three chakras in a state of imbalance, while a movement towards the state of wholeness opens up the upper four chakras, and above – but these are just details, you don’t have to be too concerned about it, rest assured that a state of total allowing automatically rings in the required changes (be it physical, emotional or mental) towards wholeness. You will surely see a lot of physical changes in you (many of you might have experience your body feeling “lighter” or feeling transparent/spacious within, this is because your cells have become less dense and thus more transparent), internally and externally, along with changes in your level of perception and your emotional equation, it’s like being “upgraded” to a new version of software and hardware.
What type of reality is manifested in a state of wholeness?
You may wonder how realities can co-exist on Earth between humans who are becoming balanced and humans who are still imbalanced, when the latter is mostly in the majority. The truth is that Earth (also called Gaia), as a celestial consciousness, is by itself evolving towards a higher vibration state, akin to “wholeness”, as a natural movement of growth/evolution (they say there is a cycle of evolution every 26,000 years, but that’s just details). The vibration of Earth and its atmosphere is now more suited for vibrations close to wholeness than starkly imbalanced vibrations, and hence people who are heavily imbalanced feel the pressure, even more these days, to move into balance. There are many scientific studies that have detailed a change in Earth’s energy field as well as the solar energy field, over the past few years, almost as if it’s moving into a new state of being (which it is). You are bound to see a lot of people (and corporations) moving towards balance in the next few months, in many ways, through their own journeys, and the vibe on Earth would come towards a state of wholeness as a majority. This vibe will ensure that realities based in wholeness are of the dominant nature on Earth – and I am not talking about years, I am talking about a few months for you to see this change.
However, right now is a “transition period”, and like any transition period there is a feeling of uncertainty and even a feeling of chaos. This is normal, and it serves a purpose towards breaking down set patterns of purely egoistic/separatist thinking, imbalanced structures of belief (and realities created from them) and narrow perspectives. A lot of humans are having their wake up calls, either through events happening in their life or through episodes of sudden fear coming up in their mind, you may wonder why you are having so many fearful thoughts out of the blue – rest assured, these are all just wake up calls, nothing more, and their intention is simply to awaken your awareness so that you can balance out to match the vibration that Earth is moving towards. Instead of trying to suppress these wake up calls, surrender to them by coming to a place of allowing and you will allow the inner transformation that’s being called for – it’s all a movement towards a greater well-being, of wholeness. Your mind might get into a panic, as the old patterns start getting shaken up, and say “something’s going wrong”, but the opposite is the truth – a new order of living is being established, a new vibe of existence, a new state of consciousness based in oneness.
If you are feeling uncertain, and confused, about where your life is headed, as all your old realities and thought patterns lose their hold, just be rest assured that it’s just a temporary phase of “reconstruction”, and you will see stability in your external reality soon enough. For now, in the next few months, just focus more on bringing an inner stability by being grounded more in allowing than in trying to “sort it out”. You will look back upon these times and realize that it was a necessity to ring in a new reality. I totally understand the challenges that your mind may be facing with respect to the fear of the unknown, moving into the unfamiliar domain of this new vibe (having only known the vibe of imbalance all along), but this is just a temporary unease, you will soon feel grounded in this new vibe and you will see your realities reflecting the same wholeness you experience within. Realities created in a state of wholeness have a “harmonious” feel to them, there is no stark contrast, and the interplay of light and dark is hardly of any intensity, and these realities are “malleable” allowing you to shift easily into new ones, no longer having these feeling of being “stuck” (which is so common in the dense realities created in imbalance).
It’s not that I am being an “optimist” or an idealistic, I am neither. I am just stating what I sense as the natural movement which is taking place. One of the advantages of being in a state of wholeness is that you have no resistance to the “insights” that come from within, the knowing that comes through from your inner being (which has the top view) – hence you are well informed of where you are heading, and this brings a sense of security which is not rooted in some blind faith but in a certain knowing.
Don’t fight the inner change
A lot of people have resistance to becoming “different”, because they feel vulnerable about leaving their past identity/personality. Whereas, some people are so fed up with their past identity that they welcome the change unequivocally. The latter are the ones who allow this process of inner transformation seamlessly, while the former are constantly at odds with it. For example, a lot of dark natured people don’t want to give up some of their dark natured traits, like their aggressiveness (which they think is needed for their defense against the world), however you can’t move into wholeness while holding on to a dark natured trait. Another example would be of a light natured person who feels immensely guilty about allowing the dark components like “hatred” in him/her, trying to hold on to this sense of being all loving, one can’t move into wholeness while holding on to such light natured beliefs. One can say that wholeness is a state of being all loving, but love has a totally different flavor in this state, it’s not the same experience as what you have when you are imbalanced towards light nature.
I think humility plays a big role is how receptive one is towards allowing inner change. The only problem is that most arrogant people think they are humble, and their “fake” humility is just a mask they wear to protect their arrogance. True humility has an openness to it, it’s not standing on guard, it’s not holding an armor, it’s like an open hand, it’s not a closed fist – it’s not meekness, there is a strength in it, openness requires true courage. You either allow humility or your learn humility the hard way, these are the only two options I’ve seen in my own personal experience (and I was rooted in the latter for a long time). Don’t be so opposed to letting your guard down, at least with yourself, don’t be so terrified of finding out how frightened you really are within, allow this fear – courage is not about fighting fear, it’s your capacity to allow fear. It’s this state of allowing that brings you seamlessly to a place of wholeness.