It’s quite common for people to state something along the lines of – “I don’t how/why I behaved that way” or “I don’t know how/why I did that”. If you find yourself being clueless about the way you behave, or the way you react to situations, on many occasions, it indicates that you are not fully aware of the make-up of your brain/mind and thus feel unpredictable within yourself. Another good indication that you are not fully aware of the natural make-up of your brain is that you find yourself being “indecisive” most of the time about what you want, or how you want to be. People who are fully aware, and aligned, with the natural make-up of their brain feel a sense of stability within themselves because they have “knowing” of who they are as this human expression – they are not volatile in their mannerism, or behavior, and exude a consistency in their expression.
Not knowing yourself is at the root of all conflicts
When you are not clear about what you want from life, your experience of life is bound to feel volatile and erratic, and you are very likely to get swayed by external influences much more than being guided by your inner knowing. It’s not possible to know what you want from life when you are not fully aware of what your brain’s natural make-up is like. Indecision, confusion and conflicted life situations are a hallmark of the reality of a person who is disconnected with himself/herself.
Here are a few pointers that you can contemplate to identify if there are gaps in your alignment with your mind’s natural make-up
– Do you constantly feel occupied with thoughts of how you should “project” yourself in front of someone instead of relaxing in the knowing that you will always be yourself.
– Do you constantly feel guilty about the things you say or the actions you take (when you are alone or when you are around people)
– Is there an internal dialogue in your mind where there seem to be “two entities” with conflicting point of views, confused about what’s the right point of view for yourself. In other words, does your mind feel like it’s divided into two opposing entities who are constantly disagreeing with each other?
– Do you find yourself constantly pondering over the conversations that you had trying to figure out if you were saying the right things?
– Do you usually feel that people don’t seem to understand you? (This usually happens with people who are not aligned within themselves, because they are constantly projecting unclear signals, which makes it very difficult for people to understand them).
– Are you mostly a person who you depends on others to take decisions for you, and tell you what’s good for you, because you find it difficult to really be clear about what you want in a given situation?
– Are you constantly trying to “change” yourself under the influence of others?
– Do you find yourself swaying with the “herd” mindset, following the group, rather than feeling confident in your own individual stand point?
– Do you usually feel like a victim who gets exploited by other people who seem to make you a means to their end?
– Is it easy for people to make you feel bad about yourself?
Actually if you said “yes” to even one of these questions it would mean that you would say “yes” to all these questions because ultimately they are all linked to the same internal conflict of not knowing oneself. You can see how your whole reality is influenced negatively when you are not fully aware of your natural make-up. How can you “be yourself” when you are not even fully sure of who you are.
The process of knowing oneself
Self-realization is not just a “spiritual” process but a very human one too. To realize yourself to be the one universal consciousness is just the first step towards bringing an unconditional awareness to your individual human mind. It’s easy to accept, and resonate, with the truth that who you are in your essence, or non-physical space, is pure positive energy (love) but a lot of authenticity and honesty is required to really know yourself as the “person”, or physical being, that you are.
Self-realization or self-knowing can be a very challenging process especially for people who have been under the habit of depending on the “external” conditioning to determine their life’s movement. A lot of people are afraid of wanting to really know themselves in the fear that they might discover something about themselves that they don’t want to face – so they are more comfortable allowing others to decided what right and wrong for them. But if you really want to experience a harmonious movement in your reality, it’s pertinent that you know yourself fully as who you are as this human mind and thus align with it. An important caution – Don’t try to project ideas of divinity, or holiness, on your mind because then you will never be able to see it for what it is.
When you start “knowing” yourself, the alignment part is taken care of by itself. The challenge is to know yourself without hiding behind any masks of “what’s the right way to be”. You should be willing to know your mind as it is, without projecting your judgment on it of what’s right or wrong (all notions of right and wrong mostly stem from external conditioning). Rest assured, that when you are being yourself, your life will always reflect a harmony and flow – so let go of the fear of facing yourself as you are. The longer you delay this process of self-knowing/self-alignment the longer you end up facing conflicted realities. There is a tremendous stability, harmony and sense of strength, when you are finally fully aligned with your mind’s natural make-up or natural way of being – your authentic human expression can only start flowering after this inner alignment takes place.