When we start exploring our world, the reality around us as we perceive it, the brain comes up with several desires based on its level of awareness, understanding, maturity and knowledge. In all of us there is this core desire to have a joyful experience of life. To meet this core desire for a joyful life the brain comes up with desires for several specific experiences/expressions that it perceives will meet this criteria. However, the brain is not “all knowing” – it has a limited vision, the higher your awareness the more aligned your vision, the lesser your awareness the more misaligned your vision. So it makes sense to first grow in awareness before you start fixating on what you really desire – you can read this post “Clear Minded Focus” to get a sense of how growing in awareness can help you get a clarity on what it is that you really desire.
When you have a low level of awareness in your brain your desires can be pretty mismatched with your heart’s calling – this is normal because when you have low level of awareness you are mostly taken in by the conditioning, and shallow perceptions, of the outside without really getting a sense of your own natural makeup, wisdom and inner guidance. Even with a high level of awareness, your brain can’t really know the exact specifics of the right reality for you, but it gets better at aligning its desires with its natural makeup, because it’s more connected with the heart/inner-being, which means you have less deluded desires and more aligned desires.
Resistance created by deluded desires
The deluded desires are not only against your natural expression but they are also purely “egoic” in the sense that they are not in sync with the wholeness of life – this causes you to be in opposition to your own life-stream when you are focused on the deluded desires. The aligned desires are in tune with your natural expression, and hence aligned with the wholeness of life, thus they just feel like an effortless “progression” – by allowing the manifestation of your aligned desires you are basically just living your natural expression.
If you use enough will-power to focus on your deluded desires, you can create some form of manifestation of them – but it requires a lot of forced focus and effort. Also the realities that you create through your own forced focus dissolve easily as soon as you let go of this focus. Aligned desires don’t require forced focus because they are taken up by your “wholeness”, you can say that your heart becomes focused on it rather than requiring a forced focus from your brain, and hence they are manifested smoothly.
The more connected you are with yourself, the lesser your chances of holding onto any deluded desire. By “staying connected with yourself” I mean have a deep sense of the natural makeup of your brain (including its core personality), rest in your being and thus allow the intelligence of your life-stream to touch your mind. Most deluded desires are created through a lack of understanding of one’s own true nature and by fueling a psychological craving over wisdom.
When you have a low level of awareness, you can be extremely certain that a deluded desire is what you really want, and feel highly depressed about not having it. Holding onto some deluded desire becomes a cause of suffering and also resists the manifestation of realities that are aligned with your natural expression. For example, when you desire to be a manager in a job that doesn’t feel aligned with your heart, this desire purely arises from an egoic perspective, because even after you become a manager you are going to be in the same field and hence you would still not be joyful doing it – it’s just that the thought of being a manager creates a deluded sense of happiness in the mind, and you will see through this delusion if you develop more awareness, or when you do end up manifesting it through effort and struggle.
Can the brain resist aligned desires?
Just like the brain can create deluded desires, it can also resist aligned desires based on some deluded fears it holds about it. The brain’s fears may have nothing to do with reality, but it will hold on to it and keep resisting the desire – mostly the fear is of the “unknown” or of leaving the familiar reality. When you have a low level of awareness in the brain, you are more likely to have several fears and negativity which act as resistance to the unfolding of the manifestation of your aligned desires. For example, you may desire a congruent relationship, but the brain can hold several fears about it and hence resist its manifestation.
The best way to determine your aligned desires, and discard the deluded desires, is to go through a phase of letting go fully – where you are not holding on to any “neediness” for the manifestation of the desires. When you let go, the desires that are not aligned with your wholeness, will automatically start losing force in your consciousness because they are no longer getting “fueled” by your forced focus. The only desires that remain are the ones that are aligned with your heart’s calling, or your natural expression. The power of letting go is that anything that’s not aligned with your wholeness starts dissolving, including the deluded desires you were holding – letting go basically means that you surrender your personal “will power” and let life decide what’s aligned with you, this requires a relinquishing of your ego force and staying open to life.
A clear mindedness comes in when you “let go” for a while. The phase of letting go is what I call “phase 3” of awakening (check the post – Awakening, transcendence and return of focus), and this phase allows you to clear out everything that’s not aligned with your wholeness. What remains on the other side is a clear mindedness about what you truly desire as a part of your natural expression. The only realities that dissolve during the phase of letting go are the ones that were not aligned with your natural expression – you lose all your deluded desires during this phase, and this allows for a deep clarity to come into your mind. This clear mindedness allows you to manifest your aligned desires in a smooth manner because now you are no longer resisting it through your focus/obsession with some deluded desires.