Awakening to the truth of your “being nature”, and understanding the dynamics of your “human nature”, is all part of phase 2, where you are deepening in the true understanding of all your aspects. However, unless you realize that in the end all the “understanding” is essentially so you can let go of trying to control your life, through mind’s limited intelligence, and trust the force of your life stream to take charge, you may end up becoming a “pundit” (a scholar) who knows a lot about the swimming pool but has never really dived into it.
The difference between awakening to the truth of life (phase 2) and letting go into your life stream (phase 3) is like understanding the make-up of an ice-cream and actually eating it. No matter how intelligently you understand how an ice-cream tastes like, you cannot know what it really tastes like until you eat it – so awakening to the truth of your wholeness is the starting point, but if it’s not followed up by actually letting go into your wholeness, you remain a prisoner to concepts, without ever “realizing”, in experience, the freedom that you so deeply “understand”.
What exactly does letting go really mean?
In your heart, you know exactly what “letting go” means, and yet the mind wants to keep asking questions about it mostly because it doesn’t really trust this place of surrender. The pointer to “let go” is for that part of your awareness that’s stuck in the mind, clinging to it, in a false assumption that the human mind has the answers to your problems. No wonder your mind is so full of fear, because you’ve bestowed upon it a responsibility which it does not have the “capacity”, or resources, to fulfill – you asking your mind to take charge of your life, with its limited external conditioning, using its limited intelligence and vision, is like asking a 10 year old kid to take charge of a multinational corporation.
The mind can never know the future, it can only make “projections” based on its past. The mind does not have the bigger picture, it can only make assumptions based on its limited vision. The mind has no clue what’s the right decision, it can only make guesses and shoot in the dark. The mind’s intelligence is purely “mechanical” and its job is to take care of “mechanical” chores – like operating a computer, learning a language, keeping events in memory, regulating the body’s processes, recording nerve impulses and sensory inputs etc. It’s basically a “computer” with a certain natural programming in it and with a capacity to be “programmed” through external feedback. As long the mind is used as a “tool” for certain practical purposes its fine, but when you depend on your mind to figure out your life it’s a scary place to be.
When your human consciousness understands that it’s safe to let go of the mind and rest in its wholeness by connecting with the larger consciousness (the space of awareness in which all thoughts arise), it finally relives the mind of this huge burden of “running your life”. A lot of your mind’s CPU (processing) gets freed up as your awareness stop feeding it so much attention, and starts resting in the space of letting go. This allows your mind to come back to its natural movement and this automatically allows the attraction of a reality that feels “congruent” with the natural make-up of your human form (this is basically when you enter phase 4), the beginning of your effortless natural expression.
Letting go happens in layers
It’s extremely rare, or even impossible, for a human to let go of their mind dependence overnight. As awakening, or the understanding, becomes more stable, and deep, in a being there is less and less resistance to letting go as one begins to trust the movement, and intelligence, of their life stream. As you start letting go, you will notice old realities, that are no longer congruent with your aligned vibration, start to crumble. Adyashanti, a renowed spiritual teacher, put it very aptly – “everything that’s not in integrity, will come crumbling down”, and what begins to take root is a new reality that’s congruent with your true nature as this human being. So be willing to allow the deconstruction of your old reality, as phase 3 continues, rest assured that the only realities that will be brought down are realities that have been the cause of your suffering and struggle.
As this process of letting go continues, internally and externally, you notice a congruent reality emerging quite effortlessly. You seem to align with a life that feels most natural to you, which suits your aptitude and inclination as this human mind. You also see yourself becoming a more “authentic” person, where you are no longer pretending to be someone you are not – all your fake personas start dissolving leaving you completely transparent. You start aligning with the natural make-up of your mind, whether it’s dark-natured or light-natured, its expression unfolds in a harmony and wisdom. You will also notice towards the final stages of phase 3 that your movements are free of “resistance” because the momentum of negativity in your mind has faded away in power.
Phase 4 is what I call “effortless existence”, it’s when you have moved to the other side burning through all the layers of resistance. Phase 3 is of course the most challenging phase in this whole journey because of tremendous fear that arises in your human consciousness at the prospect of leaving the “familiar territory” of mind identification and moving into the “unknown” domain of letting go into your life stream. It can also be quite terrifying to venture into this journey without any “assurances”, and all these pointers are so you can feel assured, and trusting, in letting go. Everything I write is from my own personal experience, and hence I can relate to the questions, doubts & fears people have about letting go. I understand it’s a very challenging journey to be on, but I also know that this journey needs to be made to get to the other side of living a life free of inner resistance – and when you are in a state of surrender this whole journey happens quite swiftly.
Some people have a very smooth transition, moving through these phases with ease – they are naturally trusting of life and have a low momentum of past negativity which allows a swift transition to take place. However, a good majority find it very challenging to make it through phase 3, though, when one is “midway” in this phase the rest of the journey is just inevitable because the pull of life becomes too strong to oppose anymore, if you resist from here you just get dragged into freedom.