You must learn to trust life to start letting go into its flow. Remember that this body that you take to be “personal” was actually created through the intention of life to express itself uniquely through this form. The body belongs to life and it will be recycled back by life. When the “mind” takes ownership of the body it eventually does not allow the body’s natural expression to unfold. Your mind can oppose your heart, and it’s usually the case in most people. Your heart is the metaphor for life’s natural will, and the mind is the metaphor for the “conditioned” will or unnatural will created through deluded thinking.
Letting go needs courage initially
Most people love to hear talks about spirituality, about “letting go” into life, but when it comes to the actual embodiment of this truth, they shy away. The mind does not want to let go, it wants to control, it wants to stay in the center. Adyashanti, a radical spiritual teacher, pointed out – “Letting go is not for the weak hearted”, by that he meant that one needs to have the courage to go against the conditioned pull of the mind to let go into the natural movement of life.
In most cases people let go when they reach a point in their life where their mind runs out of all strategies. It’s not a pleasant place to be in, but it’s usually where everyone will eventually end up because the personal cannot sustain itself forever. The latest, at the time of death, the mind realizes that no amount of personal will can stop death from happening, it realizes that it has no control and that life is ultimately in control.
In spirituality there’s a saying – “Die before you Die so that you can truly live”. It simply means let go completely of your will (like during death) so that life can truly live through you. Your personal will is created out of fear, out of a wrong vision. All the suffering and misery that is created in this world stems from the “personal” will trying to make effort under the hope that it will attain happiness through it. You can never experience true freedom as long as personal will is active in you. However, letting go of the personal will, voluntarily, requires some amount of courage and the willingness to see through the challenges of the transition.
All techniques and practices are forms of control
You can’t use a tool, technique or practice to let go, or surrender, to life. All practices and techniques are eventually forms of control and require the mind’s involvement. Whether you are practicing staying in stillness, focusing on positive thoughts, breath control or some form of meditation, eventually you are still trying to “control” and hence the mind is still in the center, it has not let go completely.
Practices and techniques have their place for a while to help bring some maturity, understanding and stability to your mind. Once you have attained understanding about the truth of life, once you have some stability and grounding in self-realization, you must let go of the practices and allow yourself to be completely “empty handed” (without any strategies). Only when you let go so completely will you start experiencing the pull of life taking over.
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