The deal with free will is that you have it when you realize that you have it, until then you are basically a puppet to your external conditioning and survival mindset. Free will is a choice which is always available to you owing to the fact that you have the capacity to create your reality (you own this capacity as your natural potential as life-energy to manifest through focus). However, this choice can only be exercised when you start recognizing that you have this choice – without this realization you will still be using your free will to follow your conditioning (which shape your beliefs, habits, outlook, attitude) unconsciously, but anything that’s done unconsciously cannot be considered “free will” because there inherently no choice involved. Choice comes into play only when you are aware of your freedom to choose, and consciously/deliberately choose a certain way of living or alignment. Anyone who consciously exercises free will is a deliberate creator of his/her reality.
You must, however, understand that when I use the term “you”, in the context of this post, I am not talking about you as this human body/mind alone. In reality, “you” is a collective presence of your physical aspect as this human body/mind and your non-physical aspect as the stream of consciousness that you are presently, and were even before your focus on this body. So free-will has to involve making a choice to allow the congruent expression of the will/intent of your non-physical perspective (which was the blueprint that created the natural make-up of your body/mind) as well as your present physical perspective.
In simple words, there are some expressions/experiences that you intended to have from non-physical perspective, for the purpose of collective well-being and your inherent growth of understanding, and there are some expressions/experiences that you desire to have from your physical perspective after having lived life this far – you can use your free-will, using the force of your human mind, to oppose the expressions that you intended in your non-physical perspective, but such an opposition will always make you feel “incomplete” within or create a sense of not feeling fulfilled. Instead, if you use your free-will to allow your natural expression as well as the manifestation of your personal desires, accrued through your physical observation, then it serves the purpose of creating a fulfilling physical journey.
As you can see, the most prudent way to use your free will is to allow your natural expression, fulfilling the roles that you intended coming in, and also allow expression of the desires, created in your present physical perspective, that are in alignment with you. So in this sense, it’s a balance – you are not just here to be a “servant” to your non-physical intention, you are here to enjoy physicality as much as living your natural expression. It’s like going on a business trip sponsored by your “generous” company that gives you the freedom to enjoy yourself to the best of your ability (checking into the best hotels, hitting the tourist spots, enjoying the choice cuisines) while you are about fulfilling the business. Your trip can be about “pure business” (with a successful or mediocre execution) or it can be business combined with pleasure, it’s totally your choice. This second part of “consciously” enjoying your physicality can only be fulfilled when you exercise your free-will to align with your personal desires, else you may just live our your natural expression (to the extent you allow) and die without really enjoying the trip to the best of your capacity.
Your desires lend your journey a personal flavor
There are many spiritual teachers who talk about not indulging in desires (of physical nature) and just dedicating yourself to the expression of life in you, with the concept of “thy will be done”. Such a life obviously affords for peace of mind, because when you are aligned with life’s expression in you (your non-physical intention) you obviously don’t have any sense of resistance within and a general sense of well-being is your experience. But I would consider such a life to be “good” but with the potential to have been better, it could have been better if you also inculcated your free-will to experience certain personal physical desires that you came upon from observing life here – it could be in the form of some luxuries, some physical/sensory pleasures or a lifestyle choice.
Of course, it’s very peaceful just to be in alignment with your natural expression and not really wanting to indulge in any other personal desires, and if that’s the expression you want as a “conscious choice” it’s totally fine – as long as you understand that you have a choice to enjoy your personal desires along with your natural expression. In simple words, “peace” is not the highest vibration possible, it’s obviously higher than low vibrations like agitation and depression, but a higher vibration to peace is an “exuberant” aliveness, which is actually the natural vibration of life-energy, which your mind/body can experience when you indulge in the expression of some of your personal desires.
If you just want to stay with peace, you are welcome to it, as long as you realize that you have the choice to up the vibration towards exuberance in many moments – it’s a choice you can’t live unless you consciously exercise it with your free-will. For example, you can have a peaceful day living your natural expression in all its simplicity and call it a night, or you can “liven up” your experience of the evening by reclining in a comfortable couch with a glass of your favorite drink, in the company of your favorite people/person, watching a movie of your choice in HD – the latter experience is created through manifesting your personal choices/desires, the former experience is living your natural expression, in a bare minimum manner, minus the “bonus” experiences you can avail.
It’s high time humans start recognizing the simple truth that we are “equals” in this universe because, in essence, we are the same life-energy that created this world, no force is condescending or patronizing on us. For some reason our minds have so much fear about taking charge of this power of being an “equal” with the universal force – most of us just want to hide behind the security of being a servant, a follower, a messenger or a foot soldier to a higher force, we always want to hang our own divinity onto some external image and worship it rather than realize our own divinity (without adding some imaginary idea of holiness to it), to consciously realize that we are inherently the same life-energy that creates worlds. We are so inherently afraid of being an equal with life, it’s the biggest inferiority complex that’s been instilled into human minds through years of misguided religious teachings.
What about the pointers of surrendering to life?
I constantly give this pointer of surrendering/allowing your life’s pull, and letting go of your mindset of struggle. This conscious “allowing”, or surrender, or letting go, is also part of exercising your free-will. When you consciously let go of the choice of entering into struggle, you are exercising your free-will to allow your life force to orchestrate events in the most comfortable manner to realize the expression of your desired reality. The pointer of “surrender to your life’s pull”, or trust your life-stream’s movement, is just a pointer towards letting go of your struggle-based mindset – stop using your personal will as a force to exert yourself into a struggle-some life, it’s totally unnecessary for you to struggle and it’s very counter-productive towards realizing your desired reality or living your natural expression.
Struggle is always a choice, no matter what your excuse of the moment is, all your excuses are inherently saying “I don’t trust life enough to let go of my struggle”, so basically you lack an understanding of life and hence lack the conviction in the intelligence of your life-stream to provide you a congruent reality that’s free of struggle. Whether it be to live your natural expression, or to manifest your desires, letting go of your struggle (or mindset of struggle) is quintessential towards a smooth orchestration of events. If there is one pointer I would like you to take away from this entire blog it would be – “let go of struggle”, period. If you can just live this pointer, you can’t help falling into alignment with your life-stream. To let go of struggle is your prerogative, it entails a conscious free-willed choice on your part. All the understanding, perspectives and pointers are so that you can finally feel confident enough to let go of your struggle-mindset – this choice solves everything. For example, if you are struggling with your mind to get rid of negative thoughts, the simple pointer is to drop your fight and “allow” your mind the full freedom to produce negative thought whenever it wants, when you do this you will see your mind losing its negative momentum on its own, it’s that simple.
The pointer of “surrendering to your life force” does not mean “don’t have personal desires”. To have a personal desire means that you consciously acknowledge that you desire the manifestation of a certain reality – your acknowledgement is important because that’s the “force” needed to remove resistances within you towards the manifestation of that desire. By “acknowledgement” I don’t mean that you have to do affirmations or write it down a hundred times, I just mean that you need to internalize the desire by accepting that it’s what you want to experience as a part of your journey. Once you’ve acknowledged it, you can leave it your life-force to orchestrate the events towards the manifestation, you can drop your struggle (including vying for some “specifics”, knowing that your life-stream has the bigger picture) and allow your life-force to inspire the right actions in you that lead to the unfolding the “essence” of your desired reality – so again surrendering to your life-force, and living your desired realities, is all part of the same equation just that the force required for the manifestation of your personal desires needs to come from “you” through your conscious acknowledgement that you want to experience that desire
(of course desires that are not in sync with the reality of Earth consciousness can’t get enough force to manifest, plus the specifics of your desire need not manifest if they are not in alignment with your well-being, or best experience, what manifests is the essence of the desire. I’ve explained this in the post – Insights on deliberate creation)
Your personal desires are a bonus that you can enjoy in your physicality and are not a necessity. If you simply stay in alignment with your natural expression your life will have an undercurrent of well-being all the time. In truth, your personal desires are “interweaved” into the journey of your natural expression quite congruently by the intelligence of your life-stream – your natural expression always has a higher importance. Just like the main purpose of a business trip is to fulfill the business, your natural expression is the significant part of your journey here and the personal desires are the “perks” that you can avail for yourself. Without living your natural expression you will never really feel a sense of inner fulfillment. Hence, it always makes sense to first come into alignment with your natural expression by letting go of struggle, and from this place of inner wholeness/alignment you can incorporate your personal desires – the added benefit is that the desires that come from a place of inner wholeness are rooted in a sense of wisdom and are not coming from an imbalanced perspective.