Working through will-power is the domain of the mind, however, it’s highly unnecessary to employ your personal will when you have your life-force providing the momentum to live your natural expression. The hatred dimension in our brain gives us the tendency to be “masochists” at some level or the other, in that we get a sense of accomplishment/gratification by going through pain and strain – there is a “high” that we get from exerting such a force on ourselves, but such a behavior can well cause us to get into an imbalance which can create injury, or fatigue, to the body, or deteriorate our well-being in some way, due to the severity/strain of our “forced actions”. Once you are resistance-free in your being, you are in alignment with your life-stream, and its momentum carries you into your natural expression on a daily basis – so there is no need or necessity for you to exert will-power.
The idea of “effortless existence” can make the mind feel that it will lose this sense of “hard-work based accomplishment”, but in truth effortless existence does not mean that you will just be lolling around, it just means that you will move into activities in an effortless manner, from a place of inspiration, without strain, and work in alignment with the right timing, avoiding unnecessary actions, and producing quality output. Also, it does not mean that you will avoid the ordinary daily chores, and just be doing extra-ordinary work, because there is as much natural expression in the ordinary chores as in creating master-pieces of art. Effortless existence is the natural state of being when one is fully aligned with his/her life-stream because there is no need for any “personal will power” in this state of being, unless you want to exert yourself for the joy of it – there is lee-way for everything in life.
The challenge of letting go of personal will
People imagine that letting go of their personal will would create a dysfunction in their life in that nothing will get done. The Ego in the mind, or “me” thought, in its limited understanding, assumes that it’s at the helm of taking care of its life, as this body, and hence uses will-power to get things done. But the use of will-power also brings in the mind’s limited vision into play, because your mind can’t know the bigger picture and hence lacks the intelligence to guide your life – your will-power based actions could well be taking you in a direction opposite to the direction where your life-stream is guiding you. In fact the common argument of a struggle oriented mind is – “if I let go of struggle who will pay my bills”, as if the life’s intelligence that came up with the creation of this cosmos is too dumb to take care of these requirements of existence for this body’s expression.
Letting go of will-power can well be the biggest challenge you will ever face during this transition from struggle based living to aligned living. It does require a huge leap in faith to let go of your personal will. There is this saying “Not my will, but thy will be done”, where “thy” refers to God, or more precisely the life-force that we are – it can scare a lot of minds to imagine such a surrender of personal will, but, in truth, living through your personal will is the biggest risk you could ever take in your life because it disconnects you from the intelligence of your life-stream, disturbs a natural balance and could keep you from living your real/natural potential. If you see, a lot of your personal will stems from some beliefs, external conditioning, lack-based perception, fear and lack of trust in life. In fact, if you sense the energy behind your personal will, you may well detect a lot of fear, hatred and lack, which is usually the driving force towards straining yourself.
Letting go of personal will does not mean that you will end up a hermit or a recluse in some way, those expressions are just “spiritual egos” in many cases. Whatever is your natural expression comes through when you let go of the struggle created through forcing yourself from a place of fear/lack created motivations. To enjoy the material/physical world is as much the expression of life as it is to express your creativity through your unique talent and skill. This whole notion of “curbing” your physicality through some spiritual ideas is just another negativity of the mind where it holds some “noble”, or holy, ideas about how life wants to express through you. For example, to live a simplistic life may be a natural expression in one person whereas as living luxuriously may be a natural expression in another person – when you let go of your conditioned will, you will always fall into your natural expression.
Letting go of personal will leads to the dissolution of realities that you were maintaining through strain and force, be it a job, relationship, routine or discipline. This dissolution is required so that a new order of reality can come into place which is rooted in your natural expression, and is aligned with the movement of your life-stream – in this place you are in relationships that are aligned with you, which don’t require effort/friction to maintain, you are in an expression that feels passionate/inspiring to you, and your reality is a reflection of well-being, ease and abundance. It’s a totally new way of living, compared to the strain based living that many mind oriented humans are rooted in. The challenge, of course, is in the transition phase when you move from the struggle-based living to aligned living because it requires you to go against a lot of your limiting external conditioning.
Personal will fuels mind momentum
Since personal will is the creation of egoic perception in the mind, it’s only obvious that living through personal will keeps fueling your mind momentum more and more. Letting go of personal will is the fastest way to reduce the mind momentum. That’s why I am never a proponent of “techniques”, except as some initial practice to gain some primary leverage and understanding. All techniques require a will-power or personal will, even those that look very spiritual like “trying” to be compassionate – any form of “trying” is against the natural expression of the moment. The freedom of life is that you can live free of techniques, and will always be available to the guidance of life in the moment – there is no need to carry a baggage of understanding, techniques or concepts.
You must understand that your life force is highly intelligent, and it knows what’s required of the moment, it knows how to ensure a full expression of the potential in which you were born, be it the creative expression or emotional expression. You will not become “defunct” in any way when you let go of your personal will, rather you will sense yourself coming to a place of effortless movement, synchronicities, wisdom, creativity and harmonious expression – a balance gets established without you trying to balance anything. The mind can keep struggling to maintain balance and it never figures it out, but when you let go of personal-will a balance gets established effortlessly because your physicality becomes an expression of the wholeness that’s inherently the nature of life.
If you’ve not experienced what it feels like to live in alignment with your life-force, it’s very understandable that your mind is highly skeptical about the efficiency of living this way. For some people this pointer, of letting go of personal will, resonates immediately in their heart because they may have seen through the limitations of their mind’s strategies and efforts, and hence are open to giving a chance to this other way of living. For others, who feel highly skeptical and fearful of letting go of their personal will, it will just take some more readiness before this pointer hits home. This readiness usually comes in when one comes to a dead end with respect to their mind’s will based efforts and strategies.
Transition from will-based living to aligned living
If you are disconnected with your natural expression and natural reality, then it will entail a small transition phase before you become aligned with it. There is no getting around the transition phase, because some old realities need to be dissolved before new structures can come in place, in fact the energy for the new structures is gained from the energy obtained by dissolving the old structures. The deconstruction phase, where the old realities start coming down (not only in the external, but in your mind, in the form of dissolution of some patterns of behavior, beliefs, habits, perceptions and attitude), is challenging but it also prepares you in terms of maturity, clarity, lightness and depth that’s required to live a resistance free life.
Every shred of personal will is usually brought down before a full alignment happens, and when you are in the middle of this transition (say 50% inside it) any form of holding on becomes too strenuous, and you just naturally let go of your personal will and become open to be moved by life. This is one reason why it helps to have an understanding of what this transition involves, so that you don’t feel so confused when you are in the middle of it, because in some cases it can feel like a total upheaval especially if you were living a highly disconnected life. You will notice, however, that you are well taken care of during this process even if there is a lot of uncertainty and confusion in the mind, when it’s in the middle of it. Though the transition phase is not what I would call the most functional state, because you are in a limbo between losing your personal will and not being totally taken in by life-force, nevertheless you are well-taken care of even in the midst of perceived chaos, usually you will realize this in hind-sight.
If you are in the middle of this transition, you can easily resonate with what I’ve said in this post. However, if you’ve not really moved into this transition or if you are in the initial stage of letting go of mind momentum, it may seem a little disconcerting to go through this phase – because the mind doesn’t like the idea of going through change so much, though it desires the fruits at the end of a change. Of course, not everyone goes through an “upheaval” during the transition, for many it could just be a smooth transition, because their reality was not very disconnected to start with – big upheavals happen only when you’ve been living in a totally disconnected manner. Your personal-will can have enough force to sustain a lot of disconnected realities, so a big part of this transition phase is the ebbing away of your personal-will, and if you don’t resist this natural movement the transition happens much faster until you get aligned with your natural expression and congruent external realities.