No matter how hard you try, it’s not possible to make the ego feel whole. The ego is simply the “me” thought-structure of the brain and when you are unconscious, of your connection with life, you take yourself to be this “me” thought so rigidly that you start feeling isolated from the universe. When you are born, into this world, what you see is the “outside”, the outside of your body and the outside of your surroundings – so your whole focus goes “outside” and creates a disconnection with your inside (your inner space). If you close your eyes, and sense your inner space, you can’t detect any “boundaries” – you can sense thoughts, feelings and sensations happening in your inner space but the space itself has no boundaries – see this for yourself. This is not philosophy, this is just reality, this space of your being is infinite with no boundaries (just like silence has no boundaries, only noise has boundaries).
The ego is all about boundaries. That’s why the ego can’t ever sense this wholeness, which is the natural vibration of the space of your being. To say the least, the ego has a shallow vision of life. All forms of shallowness arise from the ego. You can see how judgmental the brain can be when it’s seeing everything through the lens of its ego structure – everyone is a problem, everything is a problem for the ego, what’s ironical is that, in actuality, the force of ego is the problem. It’s like a man who goes to the doctor and says his whole body is in pain because anywhere he touches on his body there is pain, on examination it was found that he had a broken finger – it was not the body that was in pain, it was finger with which he was touching it that was broken and hence created the illusion that the whole body is in pain. The ego is actually like this broken finger, everything it sees looks problematic when in truth it is the problem.
Struggle arises from the force of ego
Because ego sees itself as separate from life, it believes it has to fight it out in life, it believes in the notions of struggle. What’s ironical is that the only reason you struggle is because you are opposing the natural pull of your life-stream, when you are in sync with your life stream nothing feels like a struggle. Action does not directly imply struggle, action feels effortless when it’s in sync with the inspiration of the moment, only actions that come from lack-based pull of the ego feel like struggle. No matter how much action you put in from a place of lack, it’s ultimately only going to reflect lack in everything it creates – the energy with which you do something is what gets reflected back from the results you achieve from the doing of it. Not understanding this simple principle is the reason why people struggle through several years in a hope that their struggle will one day pay off to give them an abundant life – they may even make millions through their struggle but they won’t feel abundant, simply because the lack is within them, it can’t ever be filled up by something outside them.
People who read stuff about law of attraction and then try to use their forced focus to manifest some realities are ultimately employing “struggle”. If you are really good at forcing your focus on a thought, it’s bound to take some physical form but the energy this manifestation will reflect will be the energy that was present in you when you were trying to manifest it. If your energy was rooted in lack, that’s exactly what this manifestation will reflect back at you. When you are rooted in the force of ego, an achievement may seem to give you a temporary sense of happiness but even this happiness arises because in the moment of achievement your ego relaxes its struggle, and hence gets out of the way, allowing you to sense the natural vibration of joy/wholeness of life. It’s not long before the ego force takes center stage again and start creating the feeling of lack – leading to a life of constant struggle and dissatisfaction.
The ego always sees the lack out there
You keep thinking that the lack is “out there”, you think the lack is in your physical reality, the lack is in your partner or your surroundings, but in truth the lack is just within you, because of your total identification with the ego structure, and the outside is just reflecting your inner lack back at you – it’s that simple. Clear up your inner lack and your outside reality also feels free of lack – it’s logical because when you don’t have lack within you, it’s not possible for you to see something through the lens of lack, and this doesn’t mean that your reality won’t change and you would just be stuck watching it differently – your reality changes, sometimes very dynamically, to match your inner wholeness. However, this is not a trick that the ego can pull off, though people do try the “fake it till you make it” technique where they are basically just fooling themselves.
Scientifically, it’s not possible for the ego structure to look at anything without the vibration of lack, not for long – this is because the ego structure itself is based in lack because it’s not a “stable” structure. You see, the ego force can start dissolving in power at any moment when you let go of fueling it, that’s how unstable it is and hence it’s always sitting in fear of dissolution. Can you see how strongly people defend their opinions – it’s a bid to keep strengthening the ego because letting go of this “defense” causes the ego to start dissolving in force. The ego constantly needs to feel fueled or else it will start losing its pull/power on your being, and it will use anything to fuel itself even the most miserable life experience can become a means through which an ego gains an identity and thus gets fueled – usually a miserable life-story is the greatest possession of an ego, it keeps repeating it to itself and to everyone as a means to fuel itself.
The ego’s need to show off stems from lack
When the force of ego is strong in you, it’s not possible to not live in a vibration of lack. So no matter how hard you try, no matter what you achieve/manifest, you just keep feeling lackful. You may even try to put a “pic” of you showing that you are having the time of your life, on your profile on the social networking site of your preference, but that’s just another means of the ego feeling the need to show-off to gather some sense of relevance – it’s all rooted in a deep sense of inner lack. Looking at your pic some other ego may feel diminished, thinking that you are having a better time and it’s not, and it can feel jealous, but that’s what delusion is all about. No strong egos are really having a good time, they just want you to believe that they are, but inside them they are always in lack.
This does not mean that you remove your pics, or try to be a sage, to show that you don’t care, because that could well be another egoic movement to show that you are superior to others in that you have transcended the need to show-off – that could just be another form of showing off. The pointer is to just see the energy of the ego force in you, so that you can start letting go of it, and follow up on actions that arise as you become more in sync with your wholeness.
It’s so easy to catch the ego force in action, trying to squeeze that feeling of importance in some way. There are also egos that fuel themselves through misery, they keep imbibing ways to make themselves feel bad, to complain about and hence gain some sense of relevance. When you start letting go of fueling the force of ego, you realize what a highly shallow and miserable life you were living by being identified so strongly with it. Imagine how incredibility limited your life-experience will be when you feel the need to show-off to others in order to feel good about yourself. To have a joyful life experience is natural when you are in alignment (when the ego-force diminishes) and one reason why you feel joyful is because there is no longer a need in you to impress others to feel good about yourself.
Let go of the ego’s pull to sense your wholeness
Wholeness is the natural vibration of your being, it’s not something you need to “create” or achieve – it’s something you just fall into. The only thing that keeps you from experiencing this wholeness, on a permanent basis, is the pull of the force of ego – which is always lack-based. When you let go of being pulled by this force, you automatically start coming back to your natural vibration of wholeness. When you become stable in this inner wholeness, your reality effortlessly starts reflecting wholeness back at you – in fact, during this process of transition, of moving from the force of ego to wholeness, all the incongruent elements in your external reality starts moving away from you, they start dissolving, and a new reality starts taking shape.
When you start letting go of the ego’s pull, despite all the fears that it projects to keep you hostage, you start sensing that none of the fears that the ego/brain projected are true. The biggest fear that ego creates is that if you let go of the egoic force your life will become dysfunctional (that you would end up in the caves) which is baseless because it’s like assuming that all life wants to do is sit in caves – in many cases the one’s who do sit in caves (a metaphor for detachment for physical living) are the “spiritual” egos.
What happens when you start letting go of your ego force is that your natural expression, which includes your creative expression, starts unfolding with ease, and life gives you all the resources to allow this expression abundantly. You move into activities that are aligned with your natural make-up – in simple words, you start living out the intention in which you were born and there is a deep sense of joy in these activities, they don’t feel like effort – neither do you end up as a “starving artist” (which is another ego created negative state) because life is not chaotic, it’s deeply rooted in well-being when you are in sync with it – when you are living out your natural expression you are always surrounded by well-being and abundance.