The nature of experience that stems from a place of wholeness is very different from the experience you had from a place of “imbalance”. In this context, I use the term “imbalance” purely as a relative reference to contrast it with the state of “wholeness”. If you are not in wholeness, you are in imbalance – it’s not a negative in terms of being a “mistake” or being “wrong”, it’s just a state of being which is lower in evolution to the state of wholeness. The state of imbalance is unavoidable in the journey of a soul, and the state of wholeness is the natural evolution, the next level of the journey. In fact the state of imbalance is what causes you to consciously know the state of wholeness for what it is; without the previous reference of imbalance you can’t really know/appreciate wholeness (which is your natural state). It’s the transition from the state of imbalance to the state of wholeness which causes the most confusion, this is because these are two totally different states of being, two completely different experiences, two totally contrasting movements. Having lived from the state of imbalance for so long, it can feel very dis-orienting to start living from the state of wholeness, and one can feel confused, lonely and lost, initially, the way you felt as a kid when you changed schools and suddenly had to contend with a totally new environment.
It’s only the phase of transition that feels disorienting, once you transition fully you no longer feel disoriented, in fact there is a deep level of clarity, peace, stability or whatever word you want to use to describe the state of “feeling at home”. There are some teachings that use the term 3rd dimension, 4th dimension and 5th dimension, to refer to the transition from imbalance to wholeness, the 3rd dimension being the vibrational place of imbalanced living and 5th dimension being the vibrational place of total transition towards wholeness; the 4th dimension is like an intermediate plane where you start connecting with wholeness and start letting go of the imbalanced states of being. If you simply look at the “dimensions” as states of being, then you realize that it’s simply about evolving in your perspective, from a perspective of imbalance to a perspective of wholeness, and thus releasing all the vibrations of imbalance and taking over the vibration of wholeness (or 5th dimension living). It’s about living the experience of physicality from the place of wholeness, or bringing 5th dimensional living on Earth – that’s what the transition is about, it’s not really about moving into some non-physical plane rather about bringing the state of wholeness into physicality – in other words, addressing aspects of physicality like financial stability, relationships and health, from the place of wholeness. It’s a totally different state of living as you experience finance, relationships and health from the perspective of wholeness.
You may notice that some of the recent posts (especially the last four) are along the lines of making “conscious choices” towards experiences that you desire in your physicality, and it can seem like a total contradiction to the state of letting go, or allowing. And if you read the posts out of context you may not get the implication that these posts are about how one needs to bring a “return of focus” onto physicality after having transitioned towards the state of wholeness. Without this return of focus there is bound to be a lot of confusion as to “what do I have to do now”, because once you transition into wholeness you may feel as if you’ve reached some form of an ending, when in truth it’s just a new beginning. Of course, you will sort it out on your own, eventually, with time, and you will soon realize that now you are supposed to start living the same “physical deal” but from a place of wholeness, and then you understand that it’s a totally different experience though you may be doing the same things (like your work or relationships) that you did before. The only reason for these posts is to clear up the confusion that naturally arise, during this shift, so that you can be more relaxed, and can be more clear, in shorter time, about the transition – it’s like how an orientation program is helpful towards cutting short your “orienting time” when you join a new company; even without the orientation program you would learn the ropes, and you would learn your way around, it’s just that it would take more time and it would take more “trials and errors” which can be avoided.
What does it mean to live from wholeness?
The irony is that wholeness is the opposite of the conventional definition of “achieving happiness” or the “pursuit of happiness”. Everything that’s true for the pursuit of happiness is not true for the journey towards wholeness. The reason I use the term “happiness” in contrast to “wholeness” is because we all know what is being referred to when I talk about the ideology of the pursuit of happiness, basically the ideology of “I will get happy when I get xyz”. The pursuit-of-happiness state is a 3rd dimension ideology, or the ideology that’s present in the state of imbalance – it defines happiness as a state of reach through the achievement of an external goal, or through an involvement in an external activity, be it food, sex, sports, luxuries, work-accomplishments, spiritual pursuits etc. The very foundation of the pursuit of happiness is based in “lack”, since it defines fulfillment as something that’s not internally present but needs to be experienced through the aid of an external achievement/possession – this is the reason why this ideology is at the root of imbalance, and is thus called the 3rd dimensional ideology. Even using “law of attraction” principles from this mindset of imbalance leads to more imbalance, you may manifest “stuff” but the all the stuff just keeps moving you into more imbalance because your very intent/thought is coming from a place of lack.
So what’s the ideology in the state of wholeness? There is no ideology rather it feels like natural movement. It’s simply that “fulfillment” is already your natural state and thus your reason for creating, experiencing or expressing, is simply for the fun of it, or the “responsibility” of it, rather than for achieving fulfillment through it. Even “responsibility” has a totally different meaning in the state of wholeness, it’s not something that you feel you “need” to do, rather it’s something that you do because you want to do it as a requirement for balance. Also, “fun” has completely different meaning in the state of wholeness, it’s no longer a means to fill up a void that you feel within, rather it’s a means to express the wholeness that you feel within. You may be doing the same things like working on an office project, studying for a graduation degree, taking care of your children, looking for a relationship, making new friends, flirting, playing video games, working out, re-doing your car etc, but now the “inner motivations” are totally different, none of this comes from a place of lack, none of this comes from a need to “fill up” your inner void, it doesn’t come from “I can’t live without this”, it doesn’t come from “I need to prove myself”, it doesn’t come from “I don’t want to miss out”, it doesn’t come from “I am superior/inferior”, rather it simply comes from the place of “I want to do it because that’s what I want to do”, not as a form of rigidness or stubbornness, but as an wholistic inspiration. You can see how the even the motivations in the state of wholeness are just whole in themselves.
This is a transition period on Earth, and the pointer of a “New Earth” is not idealistic or poetic, rather it’s simply a pointer towards a new reality that we are headed towards, a reality where humans live from a place of inner wholeness, it’s a natural evolution – this does not mean that it’s an end of the experience of light and dark nature, rather it’s about experiencing light and dark nature in a balanced way. Also, it’s not needed that the entire population transition at once, and together, into wholeness – that’s not possible and it’s not needed. I read somewhere that even if 3 or 4 % of the population transitions towards the state of inner wholeness, the vibrational shift would be enough to bring in the shift of reality towards 5th dimensional living – frankly, I don’t feel that talking about the “collective requirement” is the right way to look at this process, because it’s easy to then shift responsibility to the outside or start forming some sort of a “cult mentality” about wholeness. You don’t have to worry yourself about “will we make the shift as a population” rather you would just need to focus on your journey of transition – this is a very personal journey, and one of its requirements is your willingness to be “alone” (at-least within yourself) instead of looking for the outside assurance or following the herd-mindset. Total inner freedom is one the basic requirements for transitioning into a state of wholeness, any “crutch” that you hold would need to be let go of, including the crutch of “hope” or “trust” or even faith; anything that comes from a place of powerlessness, or fear, is an impediment towards wholeness.
The dynamics of transition towards wholeness
The state of imbalance is basically defined by an imbalance towards light nature, or dark nature, or a mix of both in specific aspects. For example, in a state of imbalance (or 3rd dimension living) you are motivated by a drive towards joy or the pressure of fear, by the pull of attraction (or so-called “love”) or by the spite of hatred, by the desire for indulgence or by the desire for detachment – each motivation is imbalanced, be it light-natured or dark-natured. This form of living has been going for a long time now, and the souls who have been re-incarnating on Earth (or other star-systems inhabiting 3rd dimensional living) for several life-times have become very conditioned to this state of imbalanced living, like a habit, like an addiction, like a mindset. Dropping this mindset, shedding all of the past momentum, letting go of all the emotional load accumulated through this imbalance, and dissolving realities that were created from this imbalance, can be challenge to say the least – however, it can’t be avoided, and needs to be gone through. The past accumulation cannot disappear in one shot, it can only dissolve over time by transitioning consciously – in fact it doesn’t dissolve into “nothing”, it actually becomes the fuel for the creating the new reality of balance, in that sense the imbalanced energy transforms into balanced energy.
I’ve discussed this in some posts in the past, but I would like summarize the various possible scenarios that you might experience during the transition from imbalance towards wholeness (especially when you moved into the phase of “letting go”, either deliberately or through the force of external event, also referred to as fierce grace, or what I refer to as a wake-up call).
Increased intensity of emotions – All the accumulated emotions, that were created through your imbalanced movement, will be have to be released and this exodus of emotions can feel like a “flood” during the release cycles. One can feel pretty overwhelmed by the intensity of the emotions (like sadness, anger, fear, hatred, sexual feelings, love or just dis-interest/boredom) that can arise as a part of the release. The state of imbalance is a state of “suppression” because it inclines towards one nature by suppressing the other nature, like clinging to a light nature while suppressing the dark nature or vice versa (what’s called the yin and yang imbalance). All the suppression causes a build up of momentum, and it’s stored up at many levels, in your being and also in your body – in fact, you also inherit the imbalances of your gene pool through cellular memory, and even these imbalanced inheritances need to be dissolved. Don’t start blaming your parents or ancestors, it serves no purpose – remember that your ancestors could well be just you in your past lifetime.
Most people have a hard time dealing with this “release” of emotional accumulation. It has a physical impact in terms of a bodily discomfort, depending on where the suppression points are getting released (the energy points in the body are called “chakras” and the release happens through them). Your body has the intelligence to regulate the release, and will not go above a threshold that it can’t handle. You will make it easy for yourself if you would stop analyzing the emotional release, and just let it run its course – it’s quite normal to feel a sense of panic during some intense releases, or a sense of doom especially during the release of some dark natured emotions. The pointer is to simply “let be”, it’s like an inner storm and it will pass. Sometimes you can get pulled into the emotional surge, and may end up throwing a tantrum, have a bout of crying or feeling suicidal (as a part of dramatic thinking) – this is normal, remember that the “brain” interprets the release in a negative manner and hence can have some dramatic responses now and then. Actually, the release serves a dual purpose, it frees up all the past accumulation and it develops a sense of “inner courage”, or openness, in you (because it does take you towards becoming more and more open in your being, to allow the release).
A combating ego – Remember that the imbalanced state of being has been your habit/proclivity for several lifetimes and hence your “identity” (or ego) is attached to this way of being. The transition towards wholeness requires you to shed this “attachment” which indirectly feels like shedding your sense of identity or ego – this the reason why some teachers call this process as the “death of ego”, however it’s not a very accurate pointer, in truth it’s not the end of ego rather it’s the evolution of ego towards wholeness. You will face a fierce resistance within you towards letting go of the ideologies related to the state of imbalance, and this resistance feels like there are two people living inside you – the part that doesn’t want to let go of imbalance and the part that’s pulling you towards wholeness. When you are totally lost in imbalanced living there is no inner conflict, and when you’ve totally transitioned into wholeness-based living there won’t be any inner conflict, however the phase of transition is full of inner conflict – this is the reason why people feel so exhausted, emotionally and mentally, during the transition.
If you simply accept the truth that there is no going back, that the way forward is towards wholeness, then you would stop trying to cling towards the 3rd dimensional aspects, or imbalanced aspects, in you. For some people the experience is like they are being dragged while they dig their nails into the sand to hold on, and this is because they start trying to “go back” to their past way of being after experimenting with “letting go” for a while. Once you are into this journey, there is no going back, there is only the option of going without resistance or being dragged into wholeness while you kick about. If you find yourself dealing with a lot of inner conflict, just relax and let go of your need to sort it out – this letting go is all it takes for the momentum of imbalanced motivations to die out and that makes it easy for you to transition into the mindset of wholeness and develop wholeness-based motivations from there on.
Feeling dysfunctional – Any transition always has a phase where you feel dysfunctional or not fully functional, this transition is no different. You will have to let go of the fear of being “unproductive”, because it can seem like you are put in a place of zero motivation and zero drive for a while, you may see yourself quitting (or being released) from activities that were rooted in a vibration of imbalance, and for a while you can feel a sense of panic about it because your old identity was so habituated to that activity. You may also be afraid of being judged as being irresponsible, and may also feel guilty about your unproductive state. This phase of being “unproductive”, or feeling meaningless and motivation-less, also serves a dual purpose – it releases the momentum of past “pre-occupations” that were rooted in the energy of imbalance, and it also releases you from the motivations of fear-based productivity. Being a workaholic myself, this was a tough challenge for me because there was so much identity invested in work, and in the idea of “showing productivity” for a sense of worth.
You start becoming fully functional once you transition into wholeness. You may take up certain activities that you had left off, or you make take up some new activities, but this time it won’t be from the place of imbalanced motivations. You will also see yourself becoming more interested in “quality”, mastery and expertise, and this is natural because your motivations to create come from a true place of “I want to do this” rather than from any other imbalanced influence. You will also see yourself being deeply aware of “time”, its limitations in physical realm, and working in full appreciation of its boundaries, thus making choices based on a self-realized priority.
A motivation-less motivation – During the transition phase you start losing the energy of “driven motivations”, and this can scare a lot of people because they associate it with regressing or becoming a drifter. This is sometimes referred to as the “loss of personal will” but again this is just a temporary phase that happens during transition – you will regain your will, and you will regain motivation, it’s just that it won’t have the old energy of imbalance. It’s hard to describe the feeling of motivation that’s felt in the state of wholeness, it’s so different from what is felt during the state of imbalance, but suffix to say that motivations return, your drive for “doing” things will return, but this drive is no longer felt as a restless energy of needing to get somewhere, neither is this drive rooted in desperation or fear, it’s just a very “peaceful” force – the paradox where peace and movement merge together.
So don’t be afraid of this phase of transition where you will seem to lose your past motivations. Of course, some of the activities will not return, they will dissolve for good. Some activities can return but with a different sense of motivation, and a different approach from your end. Whatever be the case, you can be sure that your desire for “doing” comes back in total balance with your sense of “being”. If you find yourself in this phase of being stuck in limbo of zero motivation, stop worrying about it, stop fighting it, and let go towards the inner pull of just “being” – you will have enough on your plate dealing with the emotional release and the challenge of the dissolving past-identity. The return of focus happens “naturally” as the momentum of the imbalance dies away, but the reason I talk about it as making a conscious choice is just to give a pointer towards the fact that there is a next level beyond just the phase of letting go.
Migrating from spiritual learnings – Towards half-way through the phase of transition, you may begin to lose interest in all the “spiritual teachings” that may have been the guidance for you to start the journey towards wholeness. By “spiritual teachings” I just mean teachings of non-physical nature, about unity consciousness (or advaita), about surrender et al. Towards the end of the transition you may become materially focused again but this time the drive is no longer from a place of lack, rather it’s from a place of wanting to explore some aspects of physicality that come as a natural inspiration to you. The reason I am mentioning this pointer is because there are some misconceptions that once you become acquainted with spirituality you don’t return to material pursuits, in truth the spiritual guidance is only a pathway back to balanced materialism – physicality/material-realm is the leading edge of creation, there is no higher ground for a being to work on experience and expression.
Changes in your physical body – The release of the “dense” accumulation of emotional load , and the openness in your mind, directly causes the body to shift towards a lighter density; it’s like the cells becoming more transparent due to the release of emotional energy. In some teachings they refer to the body changing from “carbon density” to “silicon/crystal density”, frankly these are just semantics and the bottom-line is that you will find your body becoming lighter from within. Your body will also seem to find a natural balance towards its harmonious weight. You may find yourself letting go of some foods that no longer resonate with you (mostly the highly processed varieties) with the tendency towards eating more whole foods – you don’t have to force this, it should happen naturally as per the requirements of the body.
During the transition, you may observe some physiological changes like the change of skin tone, change in body weight, change in appetite and flexibility. It’s also possible that you have some temporary conditions of skin break out, loss of appetite, muscle cramps, body aches, rise in body temperature etc, all of this would be temporary and would heal on its own as the transition progresses, and the reason for their occurrence is basically the “detox” that’s taking place.
In conclusion, the phase of transition can be confusing and disorienting when one has no understanding of what’s going on. Also, when one does not understand what wholeness really implies one is bound to keep thinking of it from the old ideology of happiness (which is just a light-natured state) and hence keep resisting the natural movement towards balancing the light and dark nature aspects in oneself. Understanding the dynamics of this process of transition towards wholeness can be a huge help towards ensuring a smoother, and more comfortable, shift.