Dealing With Uncertainty



Anyone who sees through his/her mind easily understands that the mind is not a problem, it’s just a machine designed for physicality. I use the word “mind” to refer to your brain and your heart in conjunction because both these organs define the thought space of your physical body – however, it can suffix to call the brain as the mind of a human because in the end even the heart’s signals are processed by the brain, it’s the real translator. One of the reasons why the mind fears is because it does not know what lies ahead, because your future is always a mystery, you can’t ever know your future with any certainty. Why is the future uncertain? Because life is always the Now, even life does not know how the future will unfold, it can only move from the choices of the Now.

If your mind could be given a “pre-script” of everything that’s going to happen, it would be far less fearful, and would actually make peace with what is to come – but that would also lead to a very boring life because you always know what’s going to happen, there is no suspense, plus there is no possibility for choice or growth, and it also dulls your present moment completely when you know what’s going to happen in the future. So it’s a good thing that the future is uncertain, it’s a blessing because it allows for an expectation and suspense. What is required is that you become friends with this feeling of uncertainty in the mind, understand that the mind will always have fears of the future in someway – when your mind is mature it has far less fears (also less intense fears) than an immature mind, but all minds have fears, after all it’s a survival machine. But when you don’t fear the fear of the mind, allowing its free movement, you are always in contact with the wholeness of your being and you become highly spacious/transparent within so that nothing really touches you in a disturbing way.

Allowing the fear of uncertainty

No matter how hard you try to know, no matter how well you prepare or plan, you can never know what’s going to arise in the future. The more you struggle to make yourself secure, the more you live in fear of the future. However, if you simply relax and let go of trying to give yourself some pseudo-security, and are willing to face life in an open way, you will see that your are always fresh in your outlook, you are always coming up with new ideas/inspirations, new solutions, required understanding and clear perceptions, because you are not clinging to your old conditioning/plans. Stop trying to live life through your past understanding/experience of it, allow life to surprise you by making yourself fully open to allowing what arises. You don’t need to cling for security, it’s of no use, in fact, you come to a true security when you embrace total insecurity, and allow life to happen.

A person who is no longer fearful of security is truly secure – of course, the mind will always want some structure and security, because that’s the nature of mind, however, in your being, you can stop giving credence to these fear-based thoughts in the mind, you don’t have to believe them, just allow them to be. Keep yourself free to observe how your life moves and soon you will realize that life has a harmony to it, it’s not chaotic, it’s not going crazy, it’s not disorganized. If you go to a wild forest you will see how everything is organized (the trees, the shrubs, the vines, the streams, they are all arranged in a spell-binding beauty) even though there was no-one to organize it, there is a deep harmony in the way nature (or life’s intelligence) organizes things. Can you be more trusting of this life’s intelligence and give less credence to the fears of your mind (without being angry with it, after all the mind is just doing what it’s designed to do)?

Fear is the fire of oncoming transformation

When you are clinging for security, you live a paranoid life, you become highly needy and there is an energy of lack in you. The only reason you cling for security is because you are not stable enough to allow the fears in your mind and are always looking for “quick relief” to shut it up. Rather, if you would stop being so afraid of the fears of the mind, and allow it to be (allowing its temporary noise and discomfort), you can stay open to life’s intelligence and thus unveil far deeper possibilities, and opportunities, that can bring a dynamism and beauty to your life.

There is a huge difference, in the life experiences, between a person who is doing everything for seeking some temporary relief (a pseudo-security) and person who is willing to allow the fears without becoming reactive in their wake, allowing life to put things in the right place, allowing for the right timing. It’s a choice of living, it’s a way of life, you decide what type of living you want to choose.

When the mind produces fear, it is unpleasant, but you are grown up enough to allow these sensations, instead of running for some temporary relief – your reality will always move towards freshness, and expansion, if you are not clinging to some pseudo-security to appease the mind’s fears. People who develop the capacity to allow fear are always rooted in wisdom, they are never reactive, and they always stay receptive to the inspiration/inner-guidance of their life-stream because they are not held hostage by the noise of their mind’s fears.

I call fear the “fire of transformation” and anyone who is willing to burn in it are constantly moving towards transformation, growth, solution and betterment. People who run away from allowing themselves to experience the fears fully, as they arise, are always living in a place of immaturity, confusion, neediness and a stuckness in life. The common question people ask is “how do I get rid of this fear”, and the answer is always – “allow it fully”, quit trying to escape it. When you allow it fully, it transforms you, it burns your resistances, it burns your egoic hang-ups and it deepens you. When you keep resisting it, you stay a prisoner to your fears and lead a handicapped life, trying out techniques, strategies, distractions, thus ending up as an addict to temporary relief mechanisms, never allowing for a deeper maturity and growth.







48 Comments

  1. gary guthrie

    Sen,

    I’m certain NOW, that this fear of the uncertainty can easily be turned into excitement and anticipation for what’s to come. Because we know that we are going in the right direction with our life stream. With this fascinating and simple wisdom we know that our life stream will only bring us the best, and whatever step we’re taking is the one needed to continue to embrace the ever present moment, and the future is sure to be glorious. I see no need to attach any significance to the minds natural tendency to worry, instead I choose to create a place of peace and balance. This is part of our job to maintain this working relationship say to say with the mind. I have the capacity to control how I’m going to interact with my mind. I’m going to make sure I’m in balance, so I can marvel at just how great this spirit and mind connection can be.

    Sincerely,

    Gary B

    ” In order to know the truth, you have to know that which is not true. If you know the false as the false, the truth will dawn upon you”

    —–Carpe Diem—–

  2. Sunrise

    Beautiful!! Thanks again Sen for sharing.

  3. robert

    It resonates so beautifully, thank you sen

  4. Eternus

    Sen,

    I wonder if you could help me… tonight I’ve experienced a drastic change. A change that I wasn’t sure was going to happen, but it has. My circumstances have been a catalyst to this, and tonight I believe I am finally experiencing the death of the ego. For weeks, I’ve tried to justify its existence, value it… I’ve debated it in my head as to the value of it, why it has to be real, what makes it real, and what makes it a good thing… but tonight, as I was thinking about it, something clicked. It’s all a delusion. Isn’t it? None of it’s real. I believed this on an intellectual level, but I never truly KNEW it until tonight. I felt my awareness, and this was a curious feeling… but I feel a deep sense of sadness. I feel very depressed, almost hopeless. It’s a feeling of being lost, like I’m a ghost. Is this normal? Isn’t transcendence of the ego, or “ego death” supposed to be a liberating experience? I feel no resistance, but I feel no joy or peace either. Only fear, uncertainty and sadness. Is this part of the process? It’s really quite frightening, and I’d appreciate your insight into this. Thank you

    1. Sen Post author

      Eternus, first it’s important to understand what the “ego” really is so that you don’t have a confused perception of it. The way I define Ego is basically the “me” thought structure in the brain, where the brain through its self-awareness, references itself as “I” and creates a structure by adding everything that feels “personal” its identity. This is how the brain is able to have a meaningful experience of physical life, in the absence of this structure you would have no idea who you are in any practical way. The brain has its preferences, likes, dislikes, wants and inclinations, and all of this can be called the Ego because they are all “personal” to the brain – all these have a value because they define your natural expression and your uniqueness. The brain can also take up a lot limiting/negative conditioning for outside, and can also come to several negative understandings/perceptions about life, based on its interpretations of its life-experiences – this negativity also becomes part of the ego structure.

      When your awareness is totally lost in the ego structure alone, you become devoid of any perspective other than the ego perspective, and if your ego has a lot of negativity attached to its structure, that means you develop a negative perspective on life. This is when you start attracting negative realities onto yourself. Awakening is simply about waking up to your truth as the universal consciousness, or one being, and understand that the ego structure is simply a creation in the “brain” – it has a value but it’s not who you really are. In this realization, you are able to see beyond the ego while also seeing through the ego’s negativity, however this does not mean that you try to kill or get rid of the ego because that would just become another form of negativity. The ego has a job with respect to physical life, and the problem is not with the ego but with our over-identification with it which leads to negativity, and also our unconscious belief in the negativity present in the ego structure due the false conditioning, and limiting perceptions, that the brain imbibed.

      Whats happening now, with you, is that you’ve had a realization where you are able to see that the ego is simply a thought structure in the brain, nothing more nothing less. Because you’ve seen this so clearly, it has made you let go of the strong identification you had with this structure. It’s normal to have a sense of sadness because it feels like leaving an old reality, like saying good bye to an old way of living, which you know is never going to come back again because you’ve seen through it so clearly. This sadness will dissolve soon enough, but soon there will be some fears and a lot of thoughts of disorientation, where you feel as if you’ve lost the rudder of your boat, feeling groundless, with nothing to really hold on to because you are now no longer taking your ego structure for your sense of identity. But this disorientation is also a very temporary phase, and you will soon realize that the ego is necessary for physical living, and you will come back to being involved in the mind, but this time from a place of deeper connection with your being – in one sense, you now have a deep field of awareness and hence will not be totally lost in the mind. In this place, you will start gaining clarity about your mind, its natural makeup, its true preferences, and thus will be able to start living out your natural expression, also there will be a deep sense of inner wholeness because you are no longer gaining your identity fully from the ego structure of the mind.

  5. Eternus

    Thank you Sen, you put that quite perfectly. Do the feelings associated with this sense of awakening fluctuate? I do not think of this as a negative experience. There is fear and sadness, but there is also a sense of relief. I believe that because the reality has hit me more suddenly and more concrete than I had anticipated has caused me to feel these emotions so intensely. When I talk about relief, however, I also feel lighter, both metaphorically speaking (because something is no longer being carried on my shoulders), but also a strange sense of physical lightness which I’m not sure can be contributed to this experience. Just not long ago, I experienced a wave of joy, which expressed itself in the form of laughing, but not laughing as we would normally define it… it was just the sense of relief, and the joy associated with it. It’s such a strange sensation.. yet I feel it’s “right”.

    Thank you for your reply, you’ve truly helped me put this into perspective. I hope this may be the shift needed to begin my journey to spiritual growth and healing. Thank you

    1. Sen Post author

      Eternus, the intensity of feelings will settle down quite soon. The intensity is basically the release of the energy that was held up in the over-identification with the ego structure, it’s like the sudden relief you feel in the body when you put down a huge load you’ve been carrying for miles. Of course, the body takes sometime to acquaint itself with this lightness, and the higher vibration that it’s shifting towards – different bodies react different, for example, it’s possible to feel a lack of appetite for a while as the body harmonizes itself to the higher energy flow or there is a feeling of wanting to just rest for a while to recuperate from intensity of the release.

      As you’ve identified rightly, there is a sense of “this is right” even in the midst of the sadness or agitation, because you’ve now connected with your inner being in a strong way by letting go of your anchor in the ego. This starts a new way of living, aligned with inner guidance, living your natural expression, attracting realities of well-being and experiencing life from a place of wholeness and wisdom.

  6. Eternus

    I will continue reading the wisdom of your blogs. Discovering this site has been a true blessing.

  7. Sasha

    Hi Sen, recently I went through some form of trauma that was very unpleasant and until I came across your blog, I dealt with it in a series of was that just could not help me. Finally, upon stumbling across your blog and from some help from my mother, I was able to be resistant to the fears of this feeling that would hit me thoughtout my days and by the time the new year came around, I felt more or less, how I was before it all happened a couple of months a go as I stayed in a state of relaxed awareness and observed my thoughts, instead of identifying with them. However, in the last couple of days I have been staying elsewhere, and have had a bit of anxiety building up to me actually stating in the first place, and over the few couple of days into actually staying, I felt these feelings again that I hadn’t felt in a long time. I didn’t panic, and I just kept watching my thoughts as I did before and often do. I just want to know if this is a new phase of letting go of the fears of my mind, simply because when I was put in that situation I felt feelings of sadness, and depression and thoughts I hadn’t had in a while. Is this good that I experienced this?

    1. Sen Post author

      Sasha, none of this is a technique to keep distance from what arises, but rather it’s about developing the spaciousness and stability in you so that you are no longer afraid of what arises in the mind or body, any thought, any emotion. Hopefully, you are not using relaxed awareness as a technique to keep distance, or protect yourself, from the fears that arises. Awareness is like unconditional love, it’s totally open to what arises, it’s not hiding or shying away from anything – this is what freedom truly is, it’s “freedom to” experience whatever that arises. As long as you are hoping that something does not arise, it’s indicative of the fear you have towards it and thus you feel like you need to stand guard all the time. Only when you bring an totally open awareness (without holding back) to what arises can it dissolve, only then can a true transformation really take place.

  8. Sasha

    No, not at all, the whole point was that I listened to what you noted and didn’t shy away from the dimension of fear. I stayed with it but did not identify. I just would like to know I am in anyway on the right track to achieving some sort of peacefulness within my mind.

    1. Sen Post author

      You have the right understanding of this process, as you stay in a place of open allowing, you will come to a place of inner stability because when you are allowing of what arises you are no longer fueling it with your resistance and hence it ebbs away in force.

  9. Isabella

    Sen, I’ve been reading this blog for a while and I love the energy u put into it. It resonates with something inside me. I have been wondering about something. You mentioned how disidentification with the ego can create a turmoil for a while. My experience is that since I was very little I have been wondering about who I am and what the reason for me being here is. Since then I have reached a place where I am currently feeling a loss or detachment from my identity as well as a sense of being lost in this world and feelings of total disconnection from everyday life, from people, and from the dreams and beliefs I once had. Accompanying this was a feeling of ‘being attacked’ by all the negativity in me. All at once I came to see all the limiting beliefs, shameful attributes, and underlying hatred and anger within. Up to this point I have always worked hard at being loving and a ‘good/nice’ person, noble.
    This attack of negativity was accompanied by severe panic, fear and depression. I feel hopelessness as to whether this is a temporary process or not, and I am worried that I might never be back in the real world again, since I have lost my interests and dreams and have become empty inside, disconnected from my core.
    Is this a form of disodentification from ego like what you have mentioned? Is it transitory and will I find myself again if I am patient with myself and allowing of what’s coming up?
    There was a while when I tried to resist and go ahead with everyday life such as going out socially… Until I felt entirely crippled and gave up the fight. Now I am just resting.
    What makes this more inconvenient is the timing, as I am in my last month of pregnancy and feel that im running out of time and reaching a deadline. I try to trust the wisdom of life and what it wants for me. But that’s also not easy when you’re in this state.
    I’d love to read your insight. Thanks so much.

    1. Sen Post author

      Isabella, all that’s needed is that you let go of struggle – be it a struggle to know who you are, or a struggle to set your life right, because the mind which is trying to do is already imbued in a lot of fear and hence brings the same flavor to all these activities. When you simply let go of your struggle (even if the mind is against such a letting go, just don’t identify with its fears), your body and mind will come to stay of natural harmony on their own – the mind has a value in this physical life, it gives you a sense of “personal”, and it creates a structure of meaningful existence where you can go in relationship with the life around you, but when this mind is rooted in fear it always goes into a fear-based relationship with everything, including itself. The only way to overcome this fear based momentum in the mind, is to let go of struggling with it, and just stay in a stay of surrender, allowing the space of life-energy (you can call the inner-being or non-physical life space) to touch your mind and bring a balance to it – you don’t even need to understand what’s happening, a harmony will get established and a clarity will emerge on its own, if you just stay surrendered. What your mind is feeling right now, the sense of “dis-orientation” is normal and is part of the process of coming back to a natural harmony, just allow this feeling without fearing it. You can read this post – Staying surrendered to what is

  10. Isabella

    I like how you said that I don’t even have to understand the process for it to work. Sort of like gravity: it will pull you down even if you don’t understand it…
    I would like to ask you one more thing: do you think that dreams have messages for us and they try to guide us?
    I’m curious to know your thoughts on this.

    Thanks :))
    Isabella

    1. Sen Post author

      Isabella, dreams are indicative of your state of mind, a mind rooted in fear tends to have dreams that reflect fear, whereas a mind that has a low momentum of negativity is usually rooted in pleasant or ordinary dreams. Your “bad dreams” can be reflective of what kind of fears you have. Dream is just like a form of thinking, and you can gain understanding of your mind state as well as gain some inspiration from your dreams as you bring more awareness to it – like when you wake up if you spend a few minutes just staying with the re-collection of the dream.

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