The “creative impulse” is an inherent part of our nature as beings of life-energy – the impulse/motivation to create. I don’t mean something mystical when I use the term “creative impulse”, it could be something totally mundane like creating a craft, cooking up a meal, cleaning a room, preparing a report, organizing a house party, having a debate/discussion (creating ideas) etc, or it could something on a larger scale like creating a business venture, working on an organizational re-structuring, inventing new energy tools, developing better surgical procedures, writing the next hit song etc – it’s all just coming from the same “creative impulse”. There are three basic motivations that are served by the creative impulse
1. Self-realization – Our creation helps us understand ourselves. For example, you can understand yourself through your music, or your manner of administration, or the way you set up your room.
2. Entertainment/enjoyment – We create to entertain ourselves, or to entertain others (and enjoy the process of entertaining others, enjoying the appreciation). We also create to show-off our potential, and thus feel good about ourselves – it’s normal, there is nothing wrong with having a desire to show-off your potential (Nature is showing off all the time if you look around you).
3. Survival – We create some things that we can “feed” on, so that we can survive. For example, we may create a vegetable garden to feed on the vegetables. We create farms, we breed cattle, we create solutions in bio-technology to enhance food production, we create solutions for a safer habitant etc. A lot of the reasons why we create is to ensure our survival
The “original creator” (or source) is also a being of life-energy, just a more evolved being, and is also motivated by the above three reasons towards creation. Some teachings seem to contend that the original source is creating purely for the joy/entertainment of it, but that’s just one motivation (the motivation of enjoyment), the other motivations are self-realization and survival – here’s how these two motivations are served for the original creator through the creations.
Self-realization – By creating various expressions of the aspects of life-energy/itself, the source can learn about (and observe) each aspect. A range of light natured expressions, and dark natured expressions, are created, with varying mixes of light/dark component, as a part of understanding the light and dark in itself. For example, creating a being which is strongly imbalanced towards dark nature of hatred allows for a clear understanding of how this aspect works and creating a being which is strongly imbalanced towards love allows for a clear understanding of this aspect, and then there are beings in between, of various mixes. A being imbalanced in dark-nature is not a “negative”, and a being imbalanced in light nature is not a “positive”, in the eyes of the original creator they are both serving the same value – the value of providing self-realization. That’s why there is no negative or positive from an absolute perspective – I don’t call “dark nature” as negative, and I don’t call “light nature” as positive.
Survival – This is something which very few spiritual teachings talk about, but creation serves the purpose of survival for the original creator. The only way a being of life-energy can survive is by “feeding” on some form of life-energy. It’s not logically possible to survive without “feeding” on something. So what’s the food for the original creator? – the energy produced by the emotions/thoughts of the beings created. Just like how we see a piece of bread as food, a non-physical creator would see a stream of emotions as food. You generate energy when you generate emotions, and this energy is food for the source creator(s).
Of course, the original creator is not the only creator, it’s logical to imagine the original creator creating other “creators” (some light-natured creators, some dark-natured creators, some creators with a balanced mix of the two, and creators with varying mixes) who work on ground-level creations – just like how you would give birth to kids who actually end up being the next-generation that creates the next-level of civilization. Let’s call these beings who have evolved creation potential, spawned by the original creator, as the “sub-creators”. A dark-natured sub-creator would feed on the dark-energy for its survival, and hence would want to create expressions that can generate more dark-energy, it’s the same for a light-natured sub-creator, in that sense they are both just being “natural” to themselves – one is not bad and the other is not good.
The original creator is sustained by the energy produced by all of its sub-creators and creations. If this makes you feel like you are being “used”, it’s not really true, you are also “beings” (created by the sub-creators) and you also have the option of free-will to choose what you incline towards – you can incline towards an imbalance of dark, an imbalance of light, or a balance. Of course, this option of “free-will” only gets activated as you evolve to a point where your awareness is high enough to make this choice. If you are imbalanced in dark-nature you will feed on dark-energy (for example you may create drama that invokes the emotions of fear or hatred which feeds your inner momentum) and you will express/generate dark-energy which becomes fodder for any being that can “consume” these emotions. If you are imbalanced in the light-nature you will constantly try to create love and try to invoke love in others. In this sense, you are no different from the sub-creators, you are a creator yourself and you also feed on “emotions” – it’s just that your physical body also needs physical food for survival (even your food preferences are dictated by your mix of light and dark nature, for example, a highly light-natured person would usually feel inclined towards vegetarianism).
You are also evolving as a being, and one of the aspects of evolution is to develop powers/skills of creation (some day you may be creating your own earth, of course we are talking about millions of years of soul-age to reach that level of evolution). It’s just like how an adult gives birth to a kid, and then the kid grows up to be an adult – the original creator gives birth to beings who one day reach the potential of the original creator, it’s just that by that time the original creator’s potential is much higher, and hence the father is always the father and the child is always the child.
All beings inevitably find balance
It’s also true that all aspects of life-energy always move towards “balance”. So a being that was created with an imbalance of dark-nature, cannot really sustain this personality forever – inevitably this being would be pushed towards balance as a part of its evolution. This is why, I can logically interpret that the original creator is a balanced being, because it’s a highly evolved being. It’s true for all of us, we may have our imbalances right now but eventually each being inevitably finds balance (50% light, 50% dark). However, each balanced being still retains unique “personality traits” – I like to use the term “personality tints” that remain irrespective of the balance. A “tint” is just a flavor, it’s not a dominating factor, neither is it an overpowering factor. So, there can be balanced light-tinted personalities, and balanced dark-tinted personalities – this “tint” is what allows for some uniqueness of personality. In Hindu mythology there are references to various Gods, each with a different personality trait, though they are all balanced as a being – though I am not into religions, I can resonate with some truths in some scriptures.
So, in this sense, you don’t have to feel like you are being “used”. You are a part of life-energy and you are serving yourself as much as you are serving aspects of life-energy. The fact that you are “created” means that you will never-end, and you will continue to evolve as a being endlessly. One of the phases of this journey of evolution is the phase of finding “conscious balance”. Once you find conscious balance, you continue to evolve, mostly in the aspects of developing “skills” in expressions. For example, in my case, I am no longer working on understanding balance; it just feels like second nature to me to have a perspective of balance, and to be aligned with inner balance. I seem to be more interested now in expression, or aspects, of productivity. There was a time when I would spend hours just working on aspects of “releasing” (working on the state of allowing), and gaining understanding about the aspects of balance in life. Now, my daily hours seem to be spent on aspects of entertainment and challenges of productivity, and the state of balance just feels like a “given”, it’s like a second nature that’s doesn’t need to be sustained, it’s just ingrained.
It’s important to understand that in the scheme of creation, though you are serving a purpose for the “higher creator” you are also an independent being (made in the image of the creator) and you are also serving yourself, being a creator yourself. In that sense, you are serving the collective (the external) and you are also serving yourself (the personal), and it will always be like that – you cannot ever just become totally personal/selfish and you cannot sustain yourself if you become totally selfless.
The evolution of Earth
Evolution is all about “relative betterment”. As you evolve, you experience a sense of relative betterment. So what does relative betterment mean? It means a betterment in relation to where you were in the past – it’s always in relation to something. There is no such thing called a “the best life”, there is only such a thing called “a relatively better life”, and unless you have some reference to see betterment you can’t have the experience of feeing better. For example, if you are 60-year old person, then you’ve seen some relative betterment in how technology has made things easier for you. For example, how you can send an email to someone in seconds contrasted with how it used to take 3 or 4 days for them to receive your post in the olden days – I am not saying that email is the best thing that happened, but just that someone who has seen “snail mail” can see a relative betterment in the pace of communication through email. However, a child born in this internet-era would not really appreciate/experience this “betterment”, rather he/she would take it for granted and would want something better than this to have the experience of betterment.
In this sense, we can never really reach some reality which is just accepted as the “best reality” by everyone. For example, you may have been very poor as a child, and you grew up to make a lot of money, and you can experience the “relative betterment” of being rich as compared to being poor, however, if you had a kid now, he/she is bound to take this lifestyle for granted and would not have the appreciation that you have for it (because the kid has no past reference to compare the betterment with). So when I talk about betterment I am not talking about some “ideal standard world” that we are all supposed to reach, I am not talking about any idea of “perfect world” where everyone just feels totally satisfied with no more desire for betterment/improvement – such a reality is not possible, because the desire for betterment can never stop, it’s just a nature in our being – it’s the “creative impulse” that can never be suppressed.
So, when I talk about the “evolution of Earth”, I am talking about the relative betterment that Earth is moving towards from my reference point, based on my experience of Earth. There have been inferences in ancient scriptures about the fact that Earth started with a “light age”, and then it moved into a “dark age”, and now it’s evolving towards the “balanced age” (also sometimes referred to very dramatically as the “golden age”). What this means is that there was a time when Earth was mostly a dwelling of beings with imbalanced/strong light-nature, until it was disrupted and over-powered by beings with imbalanced dark-nature (there are some “channelings” that talk about DNA disruption/imbalance created in the human genetics to block access to non-physical wisdom/information, thus creating an environment of “darkness” created by this disconnection), and now it’s moving towards a new form of evolution where there will be a predominance of balanced beings/expression – with the human energy (including the DNA) becoming balanced again. There are many beings (including evolved souls) assisting Earth in this evolution, and focusing their energy towards this shift.
The de-construction of imbalance
It’s logical that beings who are imbalanced in light-nature cannot sustain as rulers, and that it won’t be long before they get over-powered/over-thrown by beings who are imbalanced in dark-nature – if there was a “fight” between beings of love and beings of hatred, the beings of hatred would always win hands down; the dark is about power, the light is about love, and power always wins over love in a “fight”. Love is a force that can sustain peace but it’s not a force that can win a fight (fight is the domain of the dark). So the light-age had to move into dark-age quite inevitably, and Earth has been dominated by the forces of imbalanced dark-nature for a long period now (reading the history of the past thousand years is easily reflective of the imbalance of dark).
The only beings who can over-power the imbalance of dark-nature are the one’s who are “balanced”. The beings imbalanced in their light-nature are powerless towards de-constructing the structures created by the dark-nature imbalances. The beings who are imbalanced in their light-nature either detest dark-nature (in a rigid way of trying to detach themselves from dark-nature, and thus go into “hiding”), or they are afraid of dark-nature – both these attitudes don’t serve any purpose towards de-constructing the dark-nature imbalances that are predominant on Earth. In order to bring a real balance one has to first stop being afraid of dark-nature, and secondly start integrating aspects of dark-nature, in oneself, as a requirement of balance. A balanced being is more powerful than a being who is imbalanced in dark-nature simply because he/she is more aligned with the wisdom that comes with balance, an imbalance disconnects you from this aspect of “wisdom” – a being imbalanced in dark-nature is not connected with wisdom and hence it’s easy for a balanced being to over-throw the influence of an imbalanced being (this simple truth is well demonstrated in the story of David and Goliath).
Earth is moving towards an evolution where the influence of the imbalance of dark-nature will come to an end, and it won’t result in some re-emergence of the beings imbalanced in light-nature, rather the evolution is towards the emergence of balanced beings. Currently, on Earth, there are beings who were imbalanced in dark nature who are moving towards balance (integrating aspects of light nature) owing to the growth in their awareness, and there are beings who were imbalanced in light-nature who are also moving towards balance owing to the growth of awareness in them, by integrating aspects of dark nature. The fact that there are light-natured people who are open to the message of integrating aspects of dark-nature is just an indication of this growth in awareness. Though, in the past, spiritual teachings have been predominantly imbalanced towards light-nature, I can see more and more literature/writings/teachings that seem to talk about balance. If you constantly keep labeling dark-nature as negative/evil then you can never really integrate a balanced dark-nature in yourself, and hence stay in a place of powerlessness, becoming vulnerable to the dominance of the imbalanced forces of dark nature.
Starving the forces of imbalance
Imbalance feeds on imbalance. I talked about the fact that there are “evolved” sub-creators (with creation abilities close to the original creator) who are imbalanced in dark-nature. In fact, they were created by the original creator out of the “creative impulse” of self-realization, to know the dark-nature expression. These dark-natured sub-creators are known by many names in scriptures, sometimes called Lucifer, Devil, Satan etc, and sometimes it’s falsely contended that they are fighting the original creator – they are not fighting the original creator, they are simply trying to live their expression of imbalance, and are fighting the imbalance of light-nature, and also fighting the possibility of balance. These sub-creators also create “spawns” of themselves, so there are souls birthed from the stream of imbalanced dark nature, just as there are souls birthed from the stream of imbalance of light nature. These souls (which is who we are), initially have no choice but to blindly follow the imbalance, until there is enough growth in awareness, after which you can make an independent choice towards aligning with balance – this is how you start evolving towards being a “conscious creator”.
One may ask, how is an evolved sub-creator not balanced? The fact is that just because you are evolved in your “skills” doesn’t mean that you are balanced – there are some highly skilled yogis who can do a lot of things with their mind-power but many of them are not balanced. Also, in-spite of having an awareness about life, there can just be a fascination towards living an imbalance especially when there is no real motivation to find balance. Also, these beings were created as an expression of imbalance, by the original creator – they have the creator abilities but with an imbalanced mindset. These creators, who are imbalanced in dark-nature, would want to feed their dark-nature imbalances.
The humans on Earth have been a major fodder for these beings, and Earth has been a “farm” which provided sustenance to these beings for the past several hundred years. The emotion of hatred and fear, that has been so predominant on earth, all along, is the food that sustains the focus of these beings on Earth. As humans learn to consciously let go of their imbalances, by connecting with a state of balanced power and balanced love, there will no longer be the creation of imbalanced emotions, and eventually the one’s needing these imbalances to sustain themselves would have to let go of their focus on Earth – this is how Earth would evolve into the “balanced age”.
This is not something “dramatic”, neither is this some conspiracy theory, rather it’s just an aspect of evolution. It’s important to understand that all of this is “required” from an absolute perspective, stemming from the “creative impulse” of self-realization – without imbalance you can never “know” what balance is. Of course, you don’t even need to understand (or believe) all these “non-physical perspectives” to work towards balance, however, it helps to know that there are several external influences who have an investment in your imbalance and would like nothing better than to promote imbalance for their own survival. The more aware you, and the more inner freedom you have, the less likely you are to be “influenced”, rather you will use your awareness to make choices – thus, you become more of an independent being (having the freedom to chose your state of being) rather than serving some imbalanced intentions of others unconsciously.
The choice towards balanced creation
As a “conscious creator”, you can now choose to no longer feed the momentum of imbalance in you, and chose to no longer generate imbalanced energy. Whenever you participate in an imbalanced-reaction you are not only choosing to feed your own internal momentum of imbalance but you are also “generating” energy that feeds forces of imbalance. When you make the choice to let go of feeding your own momentum, the past accumulated energy would get released and then there is no more “fuel” for imbalance. All that’s needed is to use your awareness to let go of getting identified with the pull of your past-momentum, and to also work on releasing the past-momentum in the state of allowing (openness to allow the past-momentum to arise within, without identification, so that it gets released).
Everything in life has a “survival instinct”, including the forces of imbalance, including the momentum of imbalance within you, nothing wants to die and it would put up a real fight for survival – you would need to use your awareness to starve out the past-momentum within you by no longer giving it the fuel of identification/reaction. Of course, you need to be easy on yourself, and not go into a state of self-blame if you do end up getting identified with the momentum in you, or if you get identified by the “external provocations” – as long as you are committed towards finding balance, constant progress is inevitable, there are no regressions.